Another day wasted.

 I tried to send a fax to a government agency.  This agency does not accept emails.  A got correspondence yesterday from Toronto.  The date stamp was eleven days ago.  I cannot afford to wait for eleven days for a letter to be delivered.  Where I live there used to be a post office and a library from which I could send faxes.  Now both are gone.  A small business agreed to send the fax but it took two hours for me to get a confirmation.  

Then I had a two hour twist with my printer.  It would only print blank pages.  I assumed I had run out of ink.  I had backup cartridges but I could not fit them into the sloths where they have had to be lined up. I had to find someone to talk me through what I could have done wrong.  You had to twist the cap ink cover to open it and I was afraid if I twisted it too hard it would break.  No,  It was only a sign of getting old, not having the strength of being able to use a can opener.

I have been sleeping since 4:00 pm; it is now 9:30 pm and I am so tired I can't stay awake.  There is nothing I can do about my body; maybe it is depression, or maybe just age.  I do not know for sure.

Stress and the truth

 

Do you know what people do when they are under a lot of stress, they scream out the truth.  

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No good deed goes unpunished.  

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1 January 2021

It is 3:39 am Friday Janaury 1 2021 ,,, and not a mouse was stirring all night.  No noise, no sound of traffic, no nothing.  A lonely light standard on the street.  Quiet.

It is 8:13 am Friday January 1 2021.  This hour last year the building in which I was living in was on fire.  I called it a slow burn.  Someone entered upstairs and started a fire that caused a lot of smoke and the bellowing smoke was noticeable by outsiders who banged on my door screaming fire and called 911. It was a stressor that added to my unwellness.  

27 December 2020

 My feeling of being near normal did not last very long.  After sleeping all afternoon yesterday until now being 5:34 am my thoughts are back to when Randy and I were treated badly.  How George Pearson Centre created years of hell for us based on nonsense fabrications. On the bulletin boards there were notices of a code white. After I read them but did mot realize that the notices were about me.  If I had a choice between the medical system or the police, I would chose the police as the police have some accountability but the health authority has none.  It is like being thrown into a pit of poisonous snakes with no protection. Once you are targetted there is no going back.  

26 December 2020 4:17 am

 I just woke up feeling a bit normal from the trauma of this past week.  I hope nothing triggers a further relapse. The trauma was caused by the horrific realization that the court made a mistake and the defendant respondents knowing of the  mistake did nothing to correct the mistake which was their duty to do. 

 I think back to October 22 2014 wherein I was assaulted by the staff at George Pearson Centre in their zeal to prevent Randy from leaving the premises.  My self-defence was never mentioned.  Just the fact that the police were called and I caused a disruption.  Those that attacked me were out-of-control.  It was I who demanded that the police be called and after the officer looked at my representation agreement, he was pissed.  He convinced me to let Randy stay at the facility and deal with management in the morning.  

 My complaint was never addressed.  Everything was calm until it wasn't.  A few days later Randy got sick and was sent to VGH and we were safe.  Risk management however was busy shifting the blame from the staff to me.  It was surreal.  They even got WorkSafe BC involved who agreed that I should be 100% banned from all VCH properties in the province because I posed a threat to the safety of the staff who attacked me. During this time I was transformed from being a jolly fat old lady to a skeleton.   

 I am feeling extremely tired again.  Time to sleep again.