30 April 2014

Randy's burial is now scheduled for tomorrow being Thurday May 01 2014.  I hope to take beautiful pictures of the landscape where he is scheduled to rest.  I am hoping to reserve a spot next to him.  I always thought I would die before him as he always looked after me even when he was deadly ill.  I am sorry Randy that I wasn't able to look after you as I should have.  Please forgive me as I know that you did not want to die.  You fought too hard to live.

25 April 2014

I was hoping that Randy's funeral would go easily but it seems that it wll be delayed for a few days.  Yesterday before I knew of the delay I purchase three buckets of carnations, a cut flower that can last for up to three months.  Even in death Randy has to wait to be put in his resting place.  I now have four sympathy cards and all of them are very thoughtful.

I asked GPC if they would give me Randy's wool coverlettes and his new Steelers t-shirts and they have refused.  They want me to take everything in plastic bags without an inventory and I can't be on the property..They will put the possessions on the sidewalk then by taxi without an inventory..  Even in death they won't do one extra thing. Denying a man a few possession in his grave seems a bit mean. Oh, well by Monday they might change their mind. And to make it more interesting the Public Trustee seized all his possessions so I can't get them anyways.  Why are they interested in a man who has no money.  What next they are going to seize his body so I can't bury him. 

24 April 2014

It has been 12 days since Randy died in the ICU at VGH.  I am so grateful that he died at VGH in its intensive care unit.  He had the best pallative care possible.  They kept him on life support until the support could not sustain him any more. His blood pressure was not compatible to life. I was able to hold his hand at the point that he died.  It was so sudden.  The nurse Susan was watching the monitor and she told me to hold his hand as he was going.  I am grateful to her as it only takes a second for a person to pass and he could have died without me knowing.. I do not remember crying at that moment.  Just holding his hand.

Randy has not been buried yet as I could not deal with him being incinerated.  He mentioned that he wanted a green burial in a forest.  I want to wrap him up in 100% wool which was what was the law in England at one time.  Everyone had to be buried in wool.  And I wanted him to be buried with his Steeler's hats and his Steeler's t-shirts.  I decided to keep his Steeler's jacket for myself as a tribute to his memory.

I am not well and I can't leave the one-room suite I live in.  I do not know how long I will be self- imprisoned here.

Randy's doggies are with me but they are so quiet all they do is lay on the floor and watch me.  Sometimes the little one, Owen, will come to me and lick/kiss my face and then I hold him tight and then I cry..

Otherwise my room is silent except for the district hum of traffic from Cambie Street. 

I just received three sympathy cards to date; but, then, more may come.  I want them for my memory box.
5976 Cambie Street Vancouver BC V5Z 3A9

April 20, 2014

Nothing to report but grief.
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13 April 2014 @ 7:55 pm Sunday Randy Michael Walker Died (10/12/56)

Randy died.  I am not sure of what, but he is dead. It happened so fast.  He is dead.  My Randy is dead.  And I will never see him again. We had no family, no close friends, we only had each other. And now he is gone. And talking about him and what caused his death will not bring him back.

I have been asked how can those that know me help.  Even if you do not know me or Randy you can help by sending us an old-fashioned sympathy card stamped and delivered by Canada Post.  

Audrey Jane Laferriere 

Randy Michael Walker

5976 Cambie Street

Vancouver, B.C.

V5Z 3A9

For my memory box.

604.321.2276

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