November 23 2020

 November 23 2020 at 1:42 am.  My vision of what happened woke me as it someone was violently shaking me to wake.  I am soaking we wet and shaking.  Wanting to sleep is forcing me to go to sleep again. I have no rage, just regret.

The Past Twelve Hours

My body has been forcing me to sleep as I was so exhausted I could not stay awake.  During these past hours I awoke three times and each time I was in terror and shaking and crying..  I still cannot believe what happened this Friday past, a week ago, I never thought that what happened would happen.  My  PTSD will never leave me... I was constantly being beat up over and over and over again.  I reached out and there was no one to help me.  

 

It is now November 21 2020 at 11:20 am.  Another short period of sleep, another awaking to construction noise with my mind racing to the negative experiences of the litigation.  We live in barbaric times.

 

November 21 2020 at 4:39 pm.  I woke up again, after another short period of sleep.  This time I was nauseated and had a slight chest pain I could not move. The nauseating is very distracting.  I feel so alone and I do not want to communciate with anyone. 

 

November 22 2020 @ 3:22 am woke up feeling exhausted but with no thoughts.  Still fatigued and need to sleep again.

 

November 22 3020 @3:34 pm.  Was awake a bit earlier, made a cup of tea, and before I could drink it all, feel asleep again.  I am not thinking about anything.  Want to sleep again.

 

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From AP Nov 18 2020

And to think I am 75 years old.

 see below

When COVID-19 tore through Donald Wallace’s nursing home, he was one of the lucky few to avoid infection.

He died a horrible death anyway.

Hale and happy before the pandemic, the 75-year-old retired Alabama truck driver became so malnourished and dehydrated that he dropped to 98 pounds and looked to his son like he’d been in a concentration camp. Septic shock suggested an untreated urinary infection, E. coli in his body from his own feces hinted at poor hygiene, and aspiration pneumonia indicated Wallace, who needed help with meals, had likely choked on his food.

“He couldn’t even hold his head up straight because he had gotten so weak,” said his son, Kevin Amerson. “They stopped taking care of him. They abandoned him.”

 

 

 

From my blog in 2018 August 19

Sunday, August 19, 2018

From an Ontario case.  Not mine. Over one hundred Ontario lawyers refused to represent me even as they acknowledged the veracity and power of my evidence. Many told me that while they personally sympathized with my situation facing injustice and corruption, they feared backlash and opprobrium from the profession if they harmed or even challenged the involved senior lawyers and their large Bay Street law firms.

Substitute Ontario Lawyers with the lawyers who represent the VCHA and the PGT.  I have been searching for eight years to get a lawyer. Why should it have been so difficult.  Not one of them offered to read my story (or read my blog) or read my amateur pleadings. But these lawyers sure knew how to advise VCHA on how to make a fake case against we.  They even got the police involved, unknown visitors, unknown experts, unknown patients, unknown staff, evidence based on gossip.  Believe it, gossip is now considered truth in a court of law.

It was about the hastening of my husband's death and they all believed my husband's life had no quality of life and they all had to help him kill himself.  It was in Randy's best interest.

When did doctors become devils..... the evil created by the medical industrial complex.  We do not have to worry about hidden agenda of hidden weapons of mass destruction only whispers of death from those you are suppose to trust.   From the first day I spoke to a social worker in 2010 I was told that I should just sign off and let the PGT look after Randy.  Another nurse told me not to push for agressive treatment.  And then there is Ro who told me that everyone at GPC has a DNR on them and them (the residents) not even knowing what a DNR was. And she believed that Randy had no quality of life.  So she made sure that my access to him was limited to ensure that he had no reason to live.  Up to April 4 2014 when Randy was admitted to VCH I always had full access to him at VGH but she Ro phoned Emergency and prevented me from seeing him.  She knew Randy was dying and wanted to make sure that he did die and die alone.

I would not abandon my husband so they made sure that they did it for me.  It was not in the best interest of my husband to live so I had to be punished/banned (2014) for life from all VCHA premises so that I would never see him again, not even on his death bed. And this came to pass.

Like Nurse Ratchet said to me, that I could not do anything to her as she was a civil servant.  The rest of them are protected by the Canadian Medical Protection Association.  The CMPA is not  an insurance company, it is a union, with tons of money and very little ethics.  No member no matter how bad he is has even be disfellowed. He has insurance for life no matter what harm he does.  So he has nothing to worry about.  And to add insult to injury it is the tax payer who pays the union dues on behalf of the physicians.Unlike the US where the physicians have to pay their own insurance premiums.

And I am still angry over my wanting to know from David Bell, partner in Guild Yule, what did I do and his response was "I knew what I did."  I said no, tell me what I did.  HE REFUSED.  So he created this expensive litigation which will eventually embarrass the government over what.  I have no idea.  I would still like to know why they wanted me to be escorted to the toilet when I was visiting Randy.  I use DEPENDS so I never had to use their toilet.  What did I do wrong.  Lawyers are not allowed to create litigation to satisfy the whim of risk management.  And then there is Dr. Dunn, Dr. Roberts and Dr. Hay who hide from being serviced with a Notice of Civil Claim.  These are professionals hiding from due process.  The College of Physicians and Surgeons should fine them $100,000 each for not respecting the law.  Physicians are given incredible amount of power and they abuse it.

November 14 2020

 

 

I just awoke shaking in anxiety.  It is so painful that all I want to do is forget.  Who would take a near 80 year old woman seriously, I must be delusional.  10:30 am

 

 

.12 November 2020

It has been a week since November 6 2020 and although I tried to distract from what happened the horror is arriving.  I just woke up more soaking wet than usual feeling nauseous and anxious.  There is something terribly wrong with the legal process when it forces you to become so terribly demoralized and stressed so your body cannot cope with the stress.  One of my doctors this spring said that I was going to die from the stress and when I mentioned this possibility those involved, they just ignored me, .  

Power corrupts and the absolute power of VCHA corrupts absolutely.  How did we get to the situation that physicians are afraid to say anything.  They are suppose to be independent yet they are complicit to the harm inflicted because of coercion from VCHA..  Confidentially does nothing except diminish democracy by censorship. 

 Now I am freezing cold and I will get into a sleeping blanket to get warm and I will fall asleep.

 

6 November 2020 court hearing

At the conclusion of the 6 November 2020 Supreme Court hearing, I asked one of the lawyer who spoke at the hearing what his name was.  He refused to tell me. So much for truth, transparency and co-operation of the legal profession.

1 November 2020 BCSC S162916

 

 

A lawsuit is often the signal to an institution that the time has come for systemic change.

We cannot let a moment of outrage be forgotten.  The voice has to continue. 

I will never forget Carolanne and VCHA threatening her that she cannot see me because I would get into trouble.  I do not know if Carolanne is dead or alive as Mr. Bell said he cannot tell me.  Mr. Bell was the lawyer for VCHA when I applied for a court order to see Carolanne.