Thursday, April 24, 2014
24 April 2014
It has been 12 days since Randy died in the ICU at VGH. I am so grateful that he died at VGH in its intensive care unit. He had the best pallative care possible. They kept him on life support until the support could not sustain him any more. His blood pressure was not compatible to life. I was able to hold his hand at the point that he died. It was so sudden. The nurse Susan was watching the monitor and she told me to hold his hand as he was going. I am grateful to her as it only takes a second for a person to pass and he could have died without me knowing.. I do not remember crying at that moment. Just holding his hand.
Randy has not been buried yet as I could not deal with him being incinerated. He mentioned that he wanted a green burial in a forest. I want to wrap him up in 100% wool which was what was the law in England at one time. Everyone had to be buried in wool. And I wanted him to be buried with his Steeler's hats and his Steeler's t-shirts. I decided to keep his Steeler's jacket for myself as a tribute to his memory.
I am not well and I can't leave the one-room suite I live in. I do not know how long I will be self- imprisoned here.
Randy's doggies are with me but they are so quiet all they do is lay on the floor and watch me. Sometimes the little one, Owen, will come to me and lick/kiss my face and then I hold him tight and then I cry..
Otherwise my room is silent except for the district hum of traffic from Cambie Street.
I just received three sympathy cards to date; but, then, more may come. I want them for my memory box.
5976 Cambie Street Vancouver BC V5Z 3A9
Randy has not been buried yet as I could not deal with him being incinerated. He mentioned that he wanted a green burial in a forest. I want to wrap him up in 100% wool which was what was the law in England at one time. Everyone had to be buried in wool. And I wanted him to be buried with his Steeler's hats and his Steeler's t-shirts. I decided to keep his Steeler's jacket for myself as a tribute to his memory.
I am not well and I can't leave the one-room suite I live in. I do not know how long I will be self- imprisoned here.
Randy's doggies are with me but they are so quiet all they do is lay on the floor and watch me. Sometimes the little one, Owen, will come to me and lick/kiss my face and then I hold him tight and then I cry..
Otherwise my room is silent except for the district hum of traffic from Cambie Street.
I just received three sympathy cards to date; but, then, more may come. I want them for my memory box.
5976 Cambie Street Vancouver BC V5Z 3A9
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Friday, April 18, 2014
13 April 2014 @ 7:55 pm Sunday Randy Michael Walker Died (10/12/56)
Randy died. I am not sure of what, but he is dead. It happened so fast. He is dead. My Randy is dead. And I will never see him again. We had no family, no close friends, we only had each other. And now he is gone. And talking about him and what caused his death will not bring him back.
I have been asked how can those that know me help. Even if you do not know me or Randy you can help by sending us an old-fashioned sympathy card stamped and delivered by Canada Post.
Audrey Jane Laferriere
Randy Michael Walker
5976 Cambie Street
Vancouver, B.C.
V5Z 3A9
For my memory box.
604.321.2276
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Friday, April 11, 2014
Randy in ICU
Randy at ICU VGH
I just got a phone call that Randy has taken a turn for the worse and he is at ICU. I do not know what to say to all those who was part in the banning.
What harm did I do. Everything I did was for Randy. Overstaying visiting hours is hardly a reason for a total ban. Defending myself and Randy against a hoard of staff who battered me and it has been turned around to say it is my fault. I feel whenever I have to deal with the health authority that I live in a country where I have no rights. You are judged by hearsay by dysfunctional individual who delight in causing harm. Bullies. The hospital system is full of them.
When I went to the ICU even though I had a court order to see Randy I had to wait two hours. The ICU had to wait for a copy of the order to be delivered to them. And I was told not to talk to anyone and I could not use any lounges if I was asked to leave Randy's room. I had to wait off VCH's property. I am sure he has septic shock; he had laboured breathing, and a high temperature. He could not recognize me.
I just got a phone call that Randy has taken a turn for the worse and he is at ICU. I do not know what to say to all those who was part in the banning.
What harm did I do. Everything I did was for Randy. Overstaying visiting hours is hardly a reason for a total ban. Defending myself and Randy against a hoard of staff who battered me and it has been turned around to say it is my fault. I feel whenever I have to deal with the health authority that I live in a country where I have no rights. You are judged by hearsay by dysfunctional individual who delight in causing harm. Bullies. The hospital system is full of them.
When I went to the ICU even though I had a court order to see Randy I had to wait two hours. The ICU had to wait for a copy of the order to be delivered to them. And I was told not to talk to anyone and I could not use any lounges if I was asked to leave Randy's room. I had to wait off VCH's property. I am sure he has septic shock; he had laboured breathing, and a high temperature. He could not recognize me.
Friday, April 10, 2014
I saw Randy today for my court allotted thirty minutes. He was extremely hot and not very responsive except towards the end when I mentioned I would rent a television for him for the weekend. If I can't see him at least he can watch tv.
I still do not know what terrible harm I did to bandish me from being with Randy during his last months of life. The medical system has not feelings for the living. What terrible thing did I do. Not follow one of their stupid rules: you have to leasve at 4:00 pm and if your leave at 4:30 you will be banned for the rest of your life. That is absurb. And that is what they are doing. All I want is to see her husband; nothing more nothing less. VGH creates guidelines that mean nothing and harm no one. They are all front line workers used to some chaos so why it is directed to me. They can't prove anything, it is all hearsay compounded upon more hearsay. It is beyond me that this has got this far and things that are important are sidelined: like the $2,000,000 replacement of the alarm system for the GPC buildingss that are going to be demolished in a few years.It would have been cheaper to higher fire marshalls to walk up and down the hall and pull the fire alarms. And all the money they are paying on security so I leave the premsies at exactly 4:00 p.m. rather than 4:30 p.m. is stupid. They must rather have Randy sit alone in a wheel chair for hours and hours and get bedsores than let him be with me. He never had sores when I had access to him everyday. I would massage his legs and arms and turn him a bit. I hever saw a nurse at George Pearsojn every do that. And yes he had a bedsore I was told it was gangreen on the heel of his right foot . I saw it, it was circular black hard dried blood with a diameter of one inch. So when I wasn't able to see Rand GPC left him I assume to sit in his wheel chair for ten hours stretches and not move his foot.
I still do not know what terrible harm I did to bandish me from being with Randy during his last months of life. The medical system has not feelings for the living. What terrible thing did I do. Not follow one of their stupid rules: you have to leasve at 4:00 pm and if your leave at 4:30 you will be banned for the rest of your life. That is absurb. And that is what they are doing. All I want is to see her husband; nothing more nothing less. VGH creates guidelines that mean nothing and harm no one. They are all front line workers used to some chaos so why it is directed to me. They can't prove anything, it is all hearsay compounded upon more hearsay. It is beyond me that this has got this far and things that are important are sidelined: like the $2,000,000 replacement of the alarm system for the GPC buildingss that are going to be demolished in a few years.It would have been cheaper to higher fire marshalls to walk up and down the hall and pull the fire alarms. And all the money they are paying on security so I leave the premsies at exactly 4:00 p.m. rather than 4:30 p.m. is stupid. They must rather have Randy sit alone in a wheel chair for hours and hours and get bedsores than let him be with me. He never had sores when I had access to him everyday. I would massage his legs and arms and turn him a bit. I hever saw a nurse at George Pearsojn every do that. And yes he had a bedsore I was told it was gangreen on the heel of his right foot . I saw it, it was circular black hard dried blood with a diameter of one inch. So when I wasn't able to see Rand GPC left him I assume to sit in his wheel chair for ten hours stretches and not move his foot.
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