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The Ghost of November 6 2020

 

November 26 2020, see November 25 2020

 See November 25 2020

November 26 2020 @ 6:18 am

I am sleeping excessively.  I wonder if that is part of PTSD.  Trying to sleep the disappointment away.  Like yesterday and the day before and the day before I awoke soaking wet with a feeling of dread about me.  They did it to my husband, they said he was incompetent when he wasn't so they controlled who he could see. Once you are deemed incompetent, any enduring of power is invalidated and the person becomes a ward of the state. So if you have an enduring power of attorney it means nothing. There is case law on this. When VCHA assessed him for competency, he would not talk to them, so he was deemed incapable.  And who did the assessment a speech therapist and a social worker.  Of course I did not know about this until after Randy died.  Randy was stubborn and if he did not like you he would not talk to you.  Of course they would chose minions as a real doctor would not put his name on such an abuse of freedom.  

25 Novewmbe 2020

 I feel asleep around 5:00 pm and just woke up soaking wet and thinking of the litigation, it should never have happened.  I was treated badly by GPC and I asked that an independent investigation be done.  Although the investigation was ordered by the chairman of the board I was told by Linda Rose that it would never happen, not over her dead body, and she reiterated Tanu saying that it would never happen not even on Randy's death bed.  

The worst instigator at the application was Morris who worked for the union of Canadian doctors who were suppose to make sure that their members acted fairly.  In fact that isn't want happens, the union does everything to continue the hateful barbaric practices of VCHA forcing their members to not tell the truth.  They do not lie they just say nothing.  I was told by Dr. Dunne that if it was up to him none of this would have happened.  However, later on he said I was a borderline crazy person.

I remember Joel Morris giving a talk to other lawyers on how to decimate witnesses.  All witnesses are to be treated as though they were liars deserving to be humiliated and found out.  Canadian law is not a US reality show designed for viewer ratings. He unfortunately is looked up to by newer lawyers as the way to achieve an unjust result.  All the defendant litigators did not attempt to negotiate with me, their job was to demoralize me and then go to Whistler on a retreat and rejoice in their conquest.  

What started the litigation was me wanting to see my husband who was dying on his death bed and the CEO of VCHA refused to let me see him not even for a two minutes a day to assure my husband that I had not abandoned him.  It was the CEO not someone from Risk Management who ordered this. It was cruel and unnecessary. This behavior forced my husband to want to die thus hastening his death.

November 26 2020 @ 6:18 am

I am sleeping excessively.  I wonder if that is part of PTSD.  Trying to sleep the disappointment away.  Like yesterday and the day before and the day before I awoke soaking wet with a feeling of dread about me.  I received an email from a lawyer yesterday and he ends it BE SAFE.  Be safe from what I replied. He never answered.  Is it code that VCHA is going to come and take me away.  They did it to my husband, they said he was incompetent when he wasn't so they controlled who he could see. Once you are deemed incompetent, any enduring of power is invalidated and the person becomes a ward of the state. So if you have an enduring power of attorney it means nothing. There is case law on this. When VCHA assessed him for competency, he would not talk to them, so he was deemed incapable.  And who did the assessment a speech therapist and a social worker.  Of course I did not know about this until after Randy died.  Randy was stubborn and if he did not like you he would not talk to you.  Of course they would chose minions as a real doctor would not put his name on such a abuse of freedom.

I still am tired and I need more sleep.

 

  

Marathon of Sleep November 24 2020 @ 3:07 am

In my marathon of sleep I woke up with my teeth hurting, soaking wet, but with a clear head questioning why did Vancouver Coastal Health not accept my diagnosis of PTSD.  I was not capable of doing the complex litigation because I was unwell but they refused the diagnosis of my doctors rather leaving it to the court who is not a physician.  I asked VCHA that I be assessed by one of their doctors but they refused.  The litigation was not about a white collar crime, it was about the tortuous ways the health authorities psychologically treat patients and family members. And the last phase was during the pandemic which deeply distracted me as I am in the high risk group.  It wasn't the courts who treated me badly it was VCHA.  The courts just did what they were obliged to do. It was VCHA who told their lawyers to bring on the application.The court does not bring on an application unless a party asks for it.  I thought that went out with the Nuremberg trials: the lawyers were just following the orders of VCHA. Each party to the litigation networked dictated by VCHA to discredit and demoralize me.  For the "fatherland." The VCHA used me to send a message that no one is allowed to complaint about treatment given to patients within their hospitals: a reverse SLAPP suit. 

 

November 23 2020

 November 23 2020 at 1:42 am.  My vision of what happened woke me as it someone was violently shaking me to wake.  I am soaking we wet and shaking.  Wanting to sleep is forcing me to go to sleep again. I have no rage, just regret.

The Past Twelve Hours

My body has been forcing me to sleep as I was so exhausted I could not stay awake.  During these past hours I awoke three times and each time I was in terror and shaking and crying..  I still cannot believe what happened this Friday past, a week ago, I never thought that what happened would happen.  My  PTSD will never leave me... I was constantly being beat up over and over and over again.  I reached out and there was no one to help me.  

 

It is now November 21 2020 at 11:20 am.  Another short period of sleep, another awaking to construction noise with my mind racing to the negative experiences of the litigation.  We live in barbaric times.

 

November 21 2020 at 4:39 pm.  I woke up again, after another short period of sleep.  This time I was nauseated and had a slight chest pain I could not move. The nauseating is very distracting.  I feel so alone and I do not want to communciate with anyone. 

 

November 22 2020 @ 3:22 am woke up feeling exhausted but with no thoughts.  Still fatigued and need to sleep again.

 

November 22 3020 @3:34 pm.  Was awake a bit earlier, made a cup of tea, and before I could drink it all, feel asleep again.  I am not thinking about anything.  Want to sleep again.

 

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From AP Nov 18 2020

And to think I am 75 years old.

 see below

When COVID-19 tore through Donald Wallace’s nursing home, he was one of the lucky few to avoid infection.

He died a horrible death anyway.

Hale and happy before the pandemic, the 75-year-old retired Alabama truck driver became so malnourished and dehydrated that he dropped to 98 pounds and looked to his son like he’d been in a concentration camp. Septic shock suggested an untreated urinary infection, E. coli in his body from his own feces hinted at poor hygiene, and aspiration pneumonia indicated Wallace, who needed help with meals, had likely choked on his food.

“He couldn’t even hold his head up straight because he had gotten so weak,” said his son, Kevin Amerson. “They stopped taking care of him. They abandoned him.”

 

 

 

From my blog in 2018 August 19

Sunday, August 19, 2018

From an Ontario case.  Not mine. Over one hundred Ontario lawyers refused to represent me even as they acknowledged the veracity and power of my evidence. Many told me that while they personally sympathized with my situation facing injustice and corruption, they feared backlash and opprobrium from the profession if they harmed or even challenged the involved senior lawyers and their large Bay Street law firms.

Substitute Ontario Lawyers with the lawyers who represent the VCHA and the PGT.  I have been searching for eight years to get a lawyer. Why should it have been so difficult.  Not one of them offered to read my story (or read my blog) or read my amateur pleadings. But these lawyers sure knew how to advise VCHA on how to make a fake case against we.  They even got the police involved, unknown visitors, unknown experts, unknown patients, unknown staff, evidence based on gossip.  Believe it, gossip is now considered truth in a court of law.

It was about the hastening of my husband's death and they all believed my husband's life had no quality of life and they all had to help him kill himself.  It was in Randy's best interest.

When did doctors become devils..... the evil created by the medical industrial complex.  We do not have to worry about hidden agenda of hidden weapons of mass destruction only whispers of death from those you are suppose to trust.   From the first day I spoke to a social worker in 2010 I was told that I should just sign off and let the PGT look after Randy.  Another nurse told me not to push for agressive treatment.  And then there is Ro who told me that everyone at GPC has a DNR on them and them (the residents) not even knowing what a DNR was. And she believed that Randy had no quality of life.  So she made sure that my access to him was limited to ensure that he had no reason to live.  Up to April 4 2014 when Randy was admitted to VCH I always had full access to him at VGH but she Ro phoned Emergency and prevented me from seeing him.  She knew Randy was dying and wanted to make sure that he did die and die alone.

I would not abandon my husband so they made sure that they did it for me.  It was not in the best interest of my husband to live so I had to be punished/banned (2014) for life from all VCHA premises so that I would never see him again, not even on his death bed. And this came to pass.

Like Nurse Ratchet said to me, that I could not do anything to her as she was a civil servant.  The rest of them are protected by the Canadian Medical Protection Association.  The CMPA is not  an insurance company, it is a union, with tons of money and very little ethics.  No member no matter how bad he is has even be disfellowed. He has insurance for life no matter what harm he does.  So he has nothing to worry about.  And to add insult to injury it is the tax payer who pays the union dues on behalf of the physicians.Unlike the US where the physicians have to pay their own insurance premiums.

And I am still angry over my wanting to know from David Bell, partner in Guild Yule, what did I do and his response was "I knew what I did."  I said no, tell me what I did.  HE REFUSED.  So he created this expensive litigation which will eventually embarrass the government over what.  I have no idea.  I would still like to know why they wanted me to be escorted to the toilet when I was visiting Randy.  I use DEPENDS so I never had to use their toilet.  What did I do wrong.  Lawyers are not allowed to create litigation to satisfy the whim of risk management.  And then there is Dr. Dunn, Dr. Roberts and Dr. Hay who hide from being serviced with a Notice of Civil Claim.  These are professionals hiding from due process.  The College of Physicians and Surgeons should fine them $100,000 each for not respecting the law.  Physicians are given incredible amount of power and they abuse it.

November 14 2020

 

 

I just awoke shaking in anxiety.  It is so painful that all I want to do is forget.  Who would take a near 80 year old woman seriously, I must be delusional.  10:30 am

 

 

.12 November 2020

It has been a week since November 6 2020 and although I tried to distract from what happened the horror is arriving.  I just woke up more soaking wet than usual feeling nauseous and anxious.  There is something terribly wrong with the legal process when it forces you to become so terribly demoralized and stressed so your body cannot cope with the stress.  One of my doctors this spring said that I was going to die from the stress and when I mentioned this possibility those involved, they just ignored me, .  

Power corrupts and the absolute power of VCHA corrupts absolutely.  How did we get to the situation that physicians are afraid to say anything.  They are suppose to be independent yet they are complicit to the harm inflicted because of coercion from VCHA..  Confidentially does nothing except diminish democracy by censorship. 

 Now I am freezing cold and I will get into a sleeping blanket to get warm and I will fall asleep.

 

6 November 2020 court hearing

At the conclusion of the 6 November 2020 Supreme Court hearing, I asked one of the lawyer who spoke at the hearing what his name was.  He refused to tell me. So much for truth, transparency and co-operation of the legal profession.

1 November 2020 BCSC S162916

 

 

A lawsuit is often the signal to an institution that the time has come for systemic change.

We cannot let a moment of outrage be forgotten.  The voice has to continue. 

I will never forget Carolanne and VCHA threatening her that she cannot see me because I would get into trouble.  I do not know if Carolanne is dead or alive as Mr. Bell said he cannot tell me.  Mr. Bell was the lawyer for VCHA when I applied for a court order to see Carolanne.