27 September 2018 @ 4:00 am in the morning

When I read the above letter which was forwarded to me dated September 26 2018 written by Catherine Romanko, the PGT, I could not believe it. I read it at 4:00 in the morning.  The letter said that I was not ill and they were calling for a summary court trial within days so that my supreme court action against the PGT would be dismissed.

This with her full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. After years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect.  My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidal.

And who are these people: The Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician and Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this.  How mean are they. It is the self-interest of themselves, their reputations, that they are interested in perserving.  It has nothing to do about protecting the public, or my rights, or the rights of anyone else.

The  4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide.  I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and I only have daily flashbacks over them not letting me see him before he died.  Besides I am old.  I am at the end of my life.  No lose to anyone.

They banned me from Randy as I had to be protected from Randy knowing he was dying he suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying. He could not protect me as he could not talk or write. And the PGT in 2014 with its quasi-judicial powers would not let me see him. Both VCHA and the PGT could have arranged it.  How could I hurt him, he was a vegetable with a mind.  He had a brain injury which made him a quad although he could move his head a bit and his right hand a bit.  That was the cruelest thing any government body could do.  But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. And if they are pressured enough to give you a reason, the reason is suspect.

How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy.  The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA.  They previously had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might do something security was there, but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward.  I could not visit Randy because those on the ward were afraid of me so I could never see Randy again. No one was afraid of me it was only an excuse by the nurses because they resented being ordered by Tanu to watch me rather than do their jobs to other patients.

All these agencies were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.

I remember when I was during a history paper 40-years ago on the West Coast Indians what happened when a tribe member committed suicide.  A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed. A life for a life.  Maybe we should go back to those days.

I was not convicted of any criminal offence.  In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work.   So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me.  All this is designed to have a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them. They will not apology or settle.  They isolate, discredit and demoralize.  It is a policy that all employees follow once a person is targetted.

When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke (Deputy police chief) he investigated, and he said that never happened.  Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying.  How could I prove it. Did it really matter because then they got WCB to agree so the employees are safe from me from what I do not know.  I was a basket case. I was incapable of premeditating anything.  And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do.

I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless.  One doctor was threatened not to be a second opinion and they threatened that he would be denied hospital privileges.  What did he ask?  He said, BUT, WHAT DID SHE DO. And I was asked to take down my blog by him which I did for a period of time for his sake. I thought by doing so things would get better but they did not.  I remember being told his livelihood and that of his family was at stake.

I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it.  But the time it takes to write it, it calms me, and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid.  I cry as I write,  each word is a tear, each sentence become a cascade of tears. I slowly become exhausted, and then I can sleep.

This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.

28 October 2018 @ 4:00 am in the morning

When I read the above letter written by Catherine Romanko, the PGT, that was forwarded to me I could not believe it.  The letter from the Public Guardian and Trustee said that I was not ill and they were calling for a summary court trial so that my action would be dismissed.

This with the full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. At eight years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect.  My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidial.

And who are we talking about the Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this.  How mean.

The  4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide.  I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and they would not let me see him before he died.  Besides I am old.  I am at the end of my life.  No lose to anyone.  They banned me and Randy knowing he was dying suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying.He could not protect me as he could not talk or write.  He was a vegetable with a mind.  That was the cruelest thing any government body could do.  But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy.  The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA.  They had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might be irrational but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward so I would have contact with others who were afraid of me.  All these tribunals were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.

I remember when I was during a history paper on the West Coast Indians and what happened when a tribe member committed suicide.  A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed.  Maybe we should go back to those days.

I was not convicted of any criminal offence.  In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work.   So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me.  It was a designed to be a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them.

When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke and he said that never happened.  Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying/.  How could I prove it.  I was a basket case.  And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do.  I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless.  One doctor I was told was threatened not to be a second opinion and they took away his hospital privileges.  What did he ask?  He said, BUT WHAT DID SHE DO.

I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it.  But the time it takes to write it calms me and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid.  I cry as I write,  each word, each sentence, I then become exhausted, and then I can sleep.

This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.  

22-09-2018 Carolanne Chamberlain

Below is part of an email from 2016.  

Carolanne always wanted to see me.  It was GPC/VCHA who made the decision otherwise.
 

On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 2:20 PM, Larry Shapiro Realties wrote:

I’ll take care of it.

When I brought the yellow flowers to Carolanne, I asked her if she would like to see you. Her response was enthusiastically

“yes”. Thought you would like to know.

Feel better soon Audrey,

Larry

15-09-2018 Not doing very well

I thought by now I would be getting better but it seems an impossible ladder to climb.  From being able to sleep too much to now not being able to sleep very little.

I can't seem to find anything that brings me pleasure -- a diversion from the eight years that I was bullied by VCHA.  With all the proactive work VCHA is doing with mental health they neglect to look into their own organization and educate their own employees on how to interact with patients and their family and friends.  Their policy is still if there is suspicion that a family member or patient might be critical of the VCHA that they have to be sanitized.  In 2010 there was a web presence called Civil Rights Now by Paul Caine.  It was highly critical of the health authorities and in those days the media would feature such talk and he has now been minimized to boring like all non-profit sites that get funding from VCHA.  It was as if  Paul was told to cool it. His website does not now contain any of the history of his time while in George Pearson Centre.  It was a history so how can, I assume, VCHA destroy it.  I wonder when he was being an advocate for the disabled he was confident and helpful now he doesn't even answer his phone.  One thing that I cannot forget about his telling was a patient who needed help at George Pearson Centre and the residents in the ward were incessantly calling for assistance to help him and the requests were ignored and the patient died.  History is history and it should not be deleted from the internet. I wonder if Paul knows about the constitutional challenge Roger Foley has started in Ontario.  The issue includes directed funding that Paul wanted for patients in British Columbia.  Foley has asked that Bill C-14 be declared unconstitutional as it does not give equal access to life.  And there was Tina who sued VCHA and the Portland Society over the way she was treated and her vivid descriptive blog is gone. And also there was Ms. Tonner a health authority nurse-employee who complained about the death of her mother while in care and she threatened to deconstruct what happened.  She got early retirement.   For the greater good VCHA has decided to get rid of any negativity about VCHA so when abuses happen a loner is considered NOK and the loner is put on the flowchart of how VCHA treat dissenters.  You are made to believe that there is something wrong with you. It is called gaslighting.  And VCHA is very good at it.

As for me my suicide ideation of a few months ago it is still with me.  It would be so easy.  No more flashbacks, no more stress, no impossible deadlines, no more erratic behavior, like buying expensive clothes (clothes full price rather than on sale) that I will never wear.  I attempted to buy a toaster oven and I took it back many times as I could not decide if I really wanted one.  So I finally decided over a four month period on the most expensive toaster oven which I now rarely use.  As an explantion, I live in a teardown and my stove oven hasn't been operational for a year.  No owner is going to fix anything if his building is going to be demolished.  And I won't complain as my rent is relatively cheap for Vancouver.  Althoug the building was built in the 1950s it is structurally sound.  It does not even have drywall, only plaster which does not mould and teak wood doors and teak wood windows frames and hardwood floors.  It was originally used as an inlaw suite.  Although the space is small I am happy here. It even has a small garden space which I am too depressed to look after. However, I did plant kale this spring and someone every so often drops by and tears off the new leaves, so now all I have is the stock with a few new small leaves sitting at the top. My place is close to the Canada Line so I have easy mobility.  I know I should be proactive and move but I do not have the energy to think that far ahead.  Once the permits are issued, I will have no choice.  I dread the thought of my rent $tripling.

It is four in the morning and it is time to try to get some sleep.

My psychologist said it was good to keep a daily journal.  I will try but sometimes it is very difficult as things are either so traumatic to repeat or so boring it is not worth the effort.  I dislike reading my emails, listening to the news, answering the phone, or even going to the post office to pick up my mail. I cancelled my newspaper subscription and I do not have television.  I have a sign on my door that says:  go away, I am sleeping.  I miss Randy and I regret not being able to fight for him harder.  I would like to say that I tried my best, but I did not.  The guilt will never go away.  Yesterday a friend tried to move some of Randy's stuff in the storage area, stuff I hadn't seriously looked at for four years, and I went ballistic.  I need his stuff near me and I want it in pristine condition.  One of the things I want to do is eventually send to his father all of Randy's clothing that have a Steeler's logo on them.  He has nine hats, sweat shirts, t-shirts and a Steeler's jacket.  When I do that maybe I might then be in acceptance with his death but then maybe not.  Everytime there was an occasion like a birthday I would go and buy Randy a $35.00 cap.  He wore his caps even when he was sleeping.  I managed to put one in his coffin before he was buried.  I know his father would appreciate the hats as he has been a lifetime Steeler's fan, so is Randy's mother, but I just can't depart with them now.  I just need to hold on to them. At one time I was wearing his bomber jacket most days but now as the weather is getting colder I can't find it.  I sometimes think, if it wasn't for Carolanne, I would be well.  I will be forever indebted to her as she told me in 2011 what Randy's rights were while being a patient at George Pearson Centre. She is the one that saved Randy's life. 

Euthanasia Prevention Coalition: Time to Terminate assisted suicide.

Euthanasia Prevention Coalition: Time to Terminate assisted suicide.: Alex Schdenberg Executive Director - Euthanasia Prevention Coalition:  Steve Forbes Steve Forbes, wrote an excellent article for ending euthanasia.

30 September 2018 : Steve Forbes

Time To Terminate "Assisted Dying"

Steve Forbes Forbes Staff

Policy “With all thy getting, get understanding."

This story appears in the September 30, 2018 issue of Forbes.

IN 2002 Belgium legalized the murderously chilling act of euthanasia, whereby doctors and nurses kill patients with their supposed consent. Holland had formally done the same the year before. This practice, all too reminiscent of what Nazi Germany did before WWII to the mentally handicapped and to people with very serious disabilities, is justified these days not by Hitlerian theories of "purifying the race," of course, but as a "humane" way to deal with those who are suffering mortal illnesses and in extreme pain.

Many thousands of patients have been disposed of since Holland and Belgium enacted these morally repugnant laws. Belgium now allows euthanasia to be applied even to children, acknowledging recently that between Jan. 1, 2016, and Dec. 31, 2017, two children, ages 9 and 11, who were afflicted with a brain tumor and cystic fibrosis, respectively, and a 17-year-old, who had Duchenne muscular dystrophy, had been put to death. Apologists say these kids gave their consent, as did their parents. Good God! Are we to believe that youngsters should be making such decisions?

Holland has been hit with scandals in which patients were administered lethal injections without their consent, in order to free up "needed" hospital beds. After all, the reasoning went, these people were going to die soon, anyway. In Belgium, according to a news report, a member of the Federal Commission for Euthanasia Control & Evaluation resigned last year "in protest at the unchecked killings of dementia patients."

What's happening here is an ugly, slippery slope. Instead of working to alleviate the tribulations of the afflicted and innovating ever better ways to do this, we simply "put them out of their misery," the way we do with household pets.

It's not only in Belgium and the Netherlands that we're seeing this awful phenomenon. A chronically ill man in Canada is suing the government because medical personnel allegedly and illegally tried to coerce him into going the assisted-suicide route to save money. "Why force me to end my life?" the plaintiff asked.

It's one thing for people to declare in writing when they are in good health and of sound mind that no "heroic" measures are to be taken, that medical staff should "let nature take its course." But it's quite another for medical personnel to actually kill patients, as is happening in Belgium, Holland and elsewhere.

Research shows that many euthanasia and assisted-suicide victims are suffering from depression. They should be treated, not abandoned. As for physical suffering, it's hardly beyond the capabilities of modern medicine to effectively manage pain with older, well-established medications, as well as newer, better drugs.

It's true that in the U.S. we have a serious opioid crisis. Nonetheless, the response shouldn't be a diminution in pain management but, alternatively, a focus on reducing and eventually eliminating the abuses

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The temptation to use euthanasia as a solution will only increase as populations age and as cash-strapped governments and insurers scramble to find ways to reduce growing healthcare costs. It should be axiomatic that life is sacrosanct, whether or not you are religious

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In recent times we have seen enormous medical advances that not only prolong life but also improve the quality of life as we age. The answer to the rising costs of healthcare is the creation of genuine free markets, which always turn scarcity into abundance. There is precious little in the way of free markets in healthcare. Third parties, primarily governments and insurers--not the patients--still dominate. This is beginning to change in the U.S. Rapidly effecting this transformation should be our urgent goal, not surrendering to rationing or descending into the pit of euthanasia and "assisted dying."

Morally and pragmatically, such practices have no place in a truly civilized and humane society.

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02 Septemeber 2018 Carolanne Chamberlain

Where is Charolanne.

I have been trying to find out what VCHA has done to Carolanne.  Ever so often VCHA puts No Contact Orders on patients and patients disappear.  This is what VCHA was doing years ago and VCHA is still doing it.  Not knowing where she is is very upsetting and distracting  for me. I cannot focus on other things that I need to do.  I get flashbacks which are very disturbing. Does this not remind you of the dark times of World War II where people would go missing never to be seen  or heard from again.

We are a society where health authorities think they can do what they want and no one says anything.  Hiding patients is not acceptable.

In 2013 I became a bit friendly with a family at VGH when Randy was in intensive care and later when I inquired where the patient was, there was no record that she ever was at VGH. This mystery can best be described as mental cruelty. You have been gaslighted. VCHA causes much grief and yet no one says anything.

I am always tired: bone-deep exhaustion of living with acute stress and uncertainty for years and it has causing me physical pain and mental disorders. It is very unpleasant, There is nothing to look forward to.  Even Carolanne is gone. How can she disappear.  I contacted everyone who should know.  Nothing. We, as a country, are a silent dictatorship.

We are being held ransom to protect the confidentiality of one or two people.  It is perverse.  It is overboard causing more harm than good.

02 August 2016 email to Andrew Macfarlane (VCHA)

Subject:
Randy Michael Walker
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2016-08-02 7:34 AM
To:
andrew.macfarlane@vch.ca

For what seems like forever I have been asking for the reasons why you signed the Certificate of Incapacity for Randy and you never replied,  I will remind you you are an officer of the court and you have chosen to offend it.

I would like to think that you were pressured into doing this but then maybe you were just lazy and rubber stamped the request of the Public Guardian and Trustee who rubber stamped whatever Coastal Health wanted.

Just for your information, the decision of the college of physicians and surgeons said that Dr. Dunne put a DNR on Randy when he should not have.  This decision was also kept from me.  Something about the college being an arcane star chamber.

How was it that you were able to rescind my involvement in Randy's life when I had an enduring power of attorney and a section 9 representation agreement.  I did not abandon Randy, I was totally devoted to him. I did not know that Randy had any money that would interest the public guardian and trustee until after Randy died.

You have insulted our judicial system and you are continuing to do so.

What you did to Randy was unforgivable.  You made sure that I would never see him again and I was his only reason for life.  How could you do that. 

From an Ontario case.  Not mine. Over one hundred Ontario lawyers refused to represent me even as they acknowledged the veracity and power of my evidence. Many told me that while they personally sympathized with my situation facing injustice and corruption, they feared backlash and opprobrium from the profession if they harmed or even challenged the involved senior lawyers and their large Bay Street law firms.

Substitute Ontario Lawyers with the lawyers who represent the VCHA and the PGT.  I have been searching for eight years to get a lawyer. Why should it have been so difficult.  Not one of them offered to read my story (or read my blog) or read my amateur pleadings. But these lawyers sure knew how to advise VCHA on how to make a fake case against we.  They even got the police involved, unknown visitors, unknown experts, unknown patients, unknown staff, evidence based on gossip.  Believe it, gossip is now considered truth in a court of law.

It was about the hastening of my husband's death and they all believed my husband's life had no quality of life and they all had to help him kill himself.  It was in Randy's best interest.

When did doctors become devils..... the evil created by the medical industrial complex.  We do not have to worry about hidden agenda of hidden weapons of mass distruction only whispers of death from those you are suppose to trust.   From the first day I spoke to a social worker in 2010 I was told that I should just sign off and let the PGT look after Randy.  Another nurse told me not to push for agressive treatment.  And then there is Ro who told me that everyone at GPC has a DNR on them and them (the residents) not even knowng what a DNR was. And she believed that Randy had no quality of life.  So she made sure that my access to him was limited to ensure that he had no reason to live.  Up to April 4 2014 when Randy was admitted to VCH I always had full access to him at VGH but she Ro phoned Emergency and prevented me from seeing him.  She knew Randy was dying and wanted to make sure that he did die and die alone.

I would not abandon my husband so they made sure that they did it for me.  It was not in the best interest of my husband to live so I had to be punished/banned for life from all VCHA premises so that I would never see him again, not even on his death bed. And this came to pass.

Like Nurse Ratchet aid to me, that I could not do anything to her as she was a civil servant.  The rest of them are protected by the Canadian Medical Protection Association.  The CMPA is not  an insurance company, it is a union, with tons of money and very little ethics.  No member no matter how bad he is has even be disfellowed. He has insurance for life no matter what harm he does.  So he has nothing to worry about.  And to add insult to injury it is the tax payer who pays the union dues on behalf of the physicians.Unlike the US where the physicians have to pay their own insurance premiums.

And I am still angry over my wanting to know from David Bell, partner in Guild Yule, what did I do and his response was "I knew what I did."  I said no, tell me what did.  HE REFUSED.  So he created this expensive litigation which will eventually embarass the government over what.  I have no idea.  I would still like to know whythey wanted me to be escorted to the toilet when I was visiting Randy.  I use DEPENDS so I never had to use their toilet.  What did I do wrong.  Lawyers are not allowed to create litigation to satisfy the whim of risk management.  And then there is Dr. Dunn, Dr. Roberts and Dr. Hay who hide from being serviced with a Notice of Civil Claim.  These are professionals hiding from due process.  The College of Physicians and Surgeons should fine them $100,000 each for not respecting the law.  Physicians are given incredible amount of power and they abuse it.

A terrible mistake

I made a terrible mistake.  I decided that since VCHA would not allow me to see Carolanne, a resident-patient at George Pearson Centre, that I would go by way of a  petition :  a court action.  Wrong move. I did not count on VCHA getting to Carolanne who said she did not want to see me.  They convinced Carolanne that I would get into trouble if I tried to see her. I could not barge in to see her again as she was put under heavy supervision. And I am afraid of violence from Paladin Security.  I told the lawyers for VCHA that their client was forcing Carolanne to say she did not want to see me because I would get into trouble ... and they did nothing.  I did ask Carolanne if she told Dr. Hay, her primary physician appointed by the state (VCHA) if Dr. Hay asked her if she wanted to see me and she said that she told him yes.  Dr. Hay did not do anything either for me to access Carolanne and neither did he attempt to contact me although I emailed him on more than one occasion asking to see Carolanne and her wanting to see me. In furtherance, the good Dr. Hay avoided service of the action I commenced for Randy as he too was Randy's physician appointed by the state.  For a year he did this. Do you have any idea how much a document processing company charges for attempting service.  Dr. Hay owes Randy $big time.  He is a professional, and he hides from a court process. He should be criminally charged with obstruction.  He knew what was wanting to being served on him as I sent him copies by email, left voice mails, faxed him, mailed the documents by post, and personally delivering them to his office.  I even made sure his lawyer knew about the document. The College of Physician and Surgeons should charge him with unprofessional conduct.  Carolanne is a quad whose family abandoned her decades ago.  She had a boyfriend Vince, but he died a few years ago from a heart attack.  The only contact she has with the real world is me. She now has a trach and cannot talk, nor can she write. She haunts me adding to my persistent complex bereavement.

The defendants who are saying that I am well are Dr. Mark Roberts and Dr. James Dunn.  And Dr. Georgia Nemetz, a respected psychologist: a graduate from York House School. None of them have examined me, but they just know. This must be defamation.  I am "not-well" so why are they telling the Supreme Court of British Columbia that I am well. But then they might not know how to search the internet to read what persistent complex bereavement is.

As for the Public Guardian and Trustee, she says that she acted in good faith, I say she abused her power.  Telling me that the enduring power of attorney I had for my husband had to be revoked because I MIGHT mismanage my husband's money is insulting and ridiculous.  This decision was made when my husband was within 9 days of him dying. They knew he was imminent and they did this anyways. Catherine Romaniuk is the Public Guardian and Trustee.  There is a report written by the Ombudsperson called No Longer Your Decision. The Report was critical of both VCHA and the PGT.  The investigation of me was done by a twenty-nine-year-old PGT employee who is most likely still living with his parents.  I know of no other reason for his immaturity i.e. stupidity.  The PGT does what VCHA instructs them what to do.  Whatever VCHA Risk Management wants, Risk Management gets.  Have gun, will travel. And the PGT cannot come up with new evidence as they already declared what evidence they have.  Even after Randy died the PGT was questioning the validity of his will which was made a decade earlier. As if I forged the Will.  They mentioned the possibility of administering the will which would mean that they can revoke a Will as easily as they could revoke a power of attorney..  Administering a will is only done when there is no will.

I woke this morning

I woke this morning in total darkness with my head screaming why was I still alive.  How your mind tells you what you are really thinking. It was unsettling.  I hide under the wool fleece I sleep with wanting to escape into further darkness and warmth.  The same wool fleece I buried Randy in. At one time in England, it was the law that bodies were to be buried in fleece. I now understand why. It is  warm, soft to the skin, and protective.

Earlier I phoned the suicide prevention people.  He spoke to me for a short period of time and he said he would call me back.  I half suspected that I had made a mistake in calling him as I waited for the police or someone to come and take me away.  I finally fell asleep.

So much for non-profits who are suppose to help.  All of them seem only to have very expensive designed web pages and only offer referrals, or nothing at all.  It is a lie just like it says that you can get a lawyer when you need one.  The worse one is the Elder group: SAIL.  After you have your initial contact they filter further calls so there is no help.

To solve problems which you might not have even created, you commit suicide.  Or if you are not too intelligent, you just wander the streets not understanding what happened.


drafted morning of June 21 2018 but not posted.

Litigation is not a tea party; neither is it a forum to psychologically torture a self-litigant or a junior lawyer.

This morning 15 June 2018 I received an email from the Public Guardian and Trustee.  I was told that the PGT had the same right as that of a poor man in that they can both sleep under the same bridge.

But that is not true as the PGT has more rights as it also has quasi-judicial powers which we the people unknown to us gave it. Rights that supersede the rich man and the poor man.  The PGT is not regulated by due process, the bedrock of a just society.

We do not live in a democracy, we live in a silent dictatorship (Rocco Galati), and we do not even know it.

The causality of being a self-litigant: how many suicides are not reported.

Thursday 23 March 2000

Family blames justice system for pushing man to suicide

Darrin White's brother-in-law cites court-ordered support payments that far exceeded his income.

Jeff Lee, Vancouver Sun

Lloyd McKenzie, a former B.C. Supreme Court judge

DARRIN WHITE: Took his own life after a court battle.

The family of a Prince George man who committed suicide is blaming the judicial system for his death.Family members say Darrin White hanged himself because he couldn't stand the pressures placed on him by what they characterize as an unsympathetic court that systematically stripped him of his family responsibilities and saddled him with unbearable costs.
"The court system didn't listen to him. It failed him. He gave up, and no one wins. Not the kids, who now don't have a father, not the ex-wife, not the court," White's brother-in-law Murray Empey said Wednesday. "The court system bullied him to his death."
On March 1, B.C. Supreme Court Master Doug Baker ruled that White, who was on temporary stress leave from his job as a BC Rail locomotive engineer, was capable of paying $2,071 in spousal and child support for his ex-wife and three children, even though White was on disability at the time and was only getting $950 per month.
In addition, Baker disregarded another $439 per month White said he was paying to support a 14-year-old daughter from a previous union.
The amounts would have eaten up almost all of White's after-tax income even had he been working and not on disability, Empey said.
"It doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that the numbers didn't add up. But that didn't seem to matter to the judge. How is it that he could make an order like that when the money wasn't there in the first place?"
But it was more than just the money that drove White over the edge, Empey said in an interview shortly before he and White's father Les returned to Brandon, Man., to bury White.
White was so traumatized by the court system that he no longer felt he had any rights, even though he loved his children and wanted to be a part of their lives, Empey said.
"I think Darrin was in a state of mind where he was beat up by the courts and he just gave up," he said. "We talked to Darrin every day, sometimes twice a day, from Brandon, and no one ever thought he would do this. What really forced him was the fact he was fighting for visitation rights, fighting for any kind of rights, and trying to be a good father, and not being allowed to be that."
White's bitter court battles were marked by charges of spousal assault, restraining orders against both him and his ex-wife, and a restriction on his visitation rights.
In a court document in which White sought a variance on a restraining order, he wrote about the importance he placed on his role as a father.
"My children need their dad and I need them," he wrote.
"I cannot tell my children I love them even though I am sure they know it. They need to hear this as often as possible," he wrote in the document, dated last month.
In his reasons, Baker acknowledged White was under stress, in part because he was involved in several court actions involving his ex-wife. One of those involved an allegation of spousal abuse. But he said he didn't believe White was supporting his first child, and felt the man could go back to his job as a locomotive engineer within weeks.
Lloyd McKenzie, a former B.C. Supreme Court judge who speaks on behalf of the court, said the White case is no different than any of the thousands that go through the courts. In this case, the outcome of a marital breakup, which at the best of times is emotional, was doubly tragic, he said.
"There is nothing unusual about this judgment," McKenzie said. "These disputes go on every day. But you don't have this kind of human antagonism or emotion in any other kind of case. This man was obviously under a very great deal of stress."
McKenzie said the judge applied standardized guidelines for spousal and child support.
He said Baker would not give interviews to the media. "A judge talks to the world through his reasons of judgment. Master Baker doesn't have any personal interest, and he didn't have anything against the man."
White's death last week has become a rallying point for family-rights groups who say the 34-year-old couldn't withstand the stress of a family court system that "chews people up."
The Prince George Parent Child Advocacy Coalition is asking for a public inquiry into Baker's ruling and says White is only one example of a family maintenance support system gone awry. On Wednesday they held a protest outside the courthouse in Prince George.
"This is a hell of a problem across the country," said Todd Eckert, an advocate with PGPCA who represented White in court before Baker. "There were a number of contributing factors to this, but in the end, it came down to Darrin believing the system had failed him. And it did."
Eckert said White is an example of why federal Justice Minister Anne McLellan needs to rewrite family support laws to reflect a growing demand for joint parenting. He said the minister is sitting on a report that advocates rewriting legislation adopted three years ago that selectively favours custodial spouses.
White's 11-year marriage dissolved in January. His ex-wife, Madeleine, who is also trained as a locomotive engineer, was awarded custody of three children aged 10, 9 and 5, and was given the matrimonial house. White had restricted visitation rights. He had been accused of spousal assault, a charge Empey said his brother-in-law denied.
On March 12, family members called the police hours after he failed to show up for a scheduled visit with the children. Police later found a personal note to his father and children, and on March 17, discovered his body behind the home of a friend he had been staying with.
Darren Lindsay, Madeleine White's lawyer, said his client was in "very poor shape" over her ex-husband's suicide. He said there was no indication White was suicidal. The children have been told of their father's death.
Eckert said he understood White was extremely distressed because he was separated from his children.
Lindsay said his client was on welfare when she applied to the court for support. She and the children had left the matrimonial home and didn't have any money, he said.
Prince George coroner Suzanne Hare said she will be conducting an inquiry into White's death. A request for a full inquest has been received from the public but won't be ruled on until after the inquiry is complete, she said.

email 12 February 2014

Email: from 12 February 2014

Disrespectful Behavior :  The visitors were wanting to let Randy hear my voice on their cell phones. I wanted him to know that I had not abandoned him. They was no covert criminal behavior.

VCHA had no intention of lifting the restrictions. I was threatened since 2010 that VCHA could make sure that I never see Randy ever again, not even on his death bed. From November 2013 to the date of the email they were in conversations with the Public Guardian and Trustee and Others to make Randy a non-person and REVOKE my power of attorney and representation agreement so I would never be able to see Randy again.  From being good for Randy, I had to be bad for him. The PGT would then be able to place a DNR/DNT/CCO Order on Randy if VCHA deemed it was in Randy's best interest to hasten his death. All they had to do was get rid of me.  I pleaded with a judge that I see Randy and she refused.  I pleaded with everyone. Randy was going to be dead within 90 days and everyone knew it. 

What a  Blatant LIE the following email is:  How can you trust those that are suppose to protect us.  

Hi Audrey,

I think that it is important that I again reinforce the expectation that we laid out in our letter that was hand delivered and signed by you on Wednesday January 29th, 2014 outlining the 90 day restrictions we were imposing based on your ongoing behavior.  This letter clearly described our expectation that if your behavior was respectful during this 90 day period that we would review the restriction and restart your visitations.  Just so you are aware, VCH has a policy on the video or audio taping of staff without their consent.  This is felt to be disrespectful behavior.  We are aware that a couple of your friends have attempted to audiotape conversations with GPC staff without their consent.  We are also aware that you had a female friend videotape your visit on Saturday February 8th without the involved staff's consent.  These constitute disrespectful behavior.

You should also be aware that your disregard for the VCH wide restriction on January 29th and January 30th as well as your presentation at the PCQO office in VGH on January 31st have been noted.  Going forward Audrey, I am responsible for all PCQO activities for Vancouver community so if you have any questions please direct them to me.

The bottom line Audrey is that we are willing to forgive your initial responses and activities from January 29th to February 10th and work towards removing this restriction after 90 days.  However, should there be one more instance of audio/video taping of VCH staff without their consent or the unauthorized accessing of VCH property continue this restriction will not be lifted.  The covert activities that you continually organize need to stop.  We have clearly presented you with our expectations of respectful behavior and hope that you can follow these rules and have the restrictions lifted.


Director, Client Relations and Risk Management
Patient Care Quality Office
Phone: 604-730-7654

cc david.eby.mla@leg.bc.ca
604-466-1297 
AG.minister@gov.bc.ca 
1-250-387-1866  

Subject:
Re: PCQRB Response - 3109
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2014-02-12 5:22 PM
To:
"Patient Care Quality Review Board HLTH:EX"

Do you not listen to what I am saying.  I have complained for years to the Vancouver PQO and they have stood their ground and offered me nothing but sorrow.  I ask that you fast track this process so I can visit my husband before he dies.   Ask your superior this is very serious and could have negative impact on your organization in that it takes forever for something as important as life and death to go through the same process as someone complaining about the linen.


On Wed, Feb 12, 2014 at 3:08 PM, Patient Care Quality Review Board HLTH:EX wrote:

    Dear Ms. Laferriere,

    If you have not already done so, please contact the PCQO for Vancouver Coastal Health Authority by telephone at 1-877-993-9199 or email pcqo@vch.ca to register your complaint.

     The PCQO has 40 business days to investigate your complaint and provide you with a response. During this time if you have any questions or would like an update on the progress of your complaint I suggest that you contact the PCQO.  If you do not receive a response or your complaint has not been resolved by the above time limit, you may request a review by the Patient Care Quality Review Board. 

    Sincerely,

    Brenda Evans

    Intake Officer

    Patient Care Quality Review Boards

    Phone:  1-866-952-2448 Fax:  250-952-2428

    
   

email 2017-09-11...

email  from 2017-09-11...

I do not expect your client to apologize.  This whole mess was created by VCHA.  Wanting an apology goes back to 2011.  I thought I had an implied invitation to visit a resident at GPC.  I went into his room to give him a plush toy and a male LPN took the plush out of my hand and threw it on the floor and said that the resident did not need it.  Tell me, what would you do in that situation...the plush toy ended up in the nurses station. I have a picture of it in there.  If the patient did not want it, the plush toy should have been returned to me. (addition June 2018 :I argued with the LPN and said he had no right to throw the plush toy on the floor and he had no right to make decisions for the resident.  Security was called)

I get banned in 2011 for giving a resident a plush toy; and then I get banned 24/7 on 29 January 2014 after saving my husband's life.  The incident of October 21 2013 was caused by VCHA. I was trying to take Randy home and staff attacked me.  I had the right to take Randy off site as I had a representation agreement and Randy wanted to go.  They assaulted me and imprisoned Randy against his will. It was I who insisted that the police be called.

The Petition to get a restraining order on April 8 2014 was hearsay and double hearsay.  I had a lawyer at that time for a few days who reviewed the Petition. But then there are times hearsay is allowed.  So I assume the application for the restraining order was drafted properly even though the hearsay was not true or not true enough to be believed . The purpose of the restraining order was to get the police to do VCHA's dirty work.  Randy was in acute/intensive care on April 8 2014 dying and VCHA is in court asking for a restraining order that I never see Randy ever again.

It was not Randy who asked for a DNR/DNT on November 15, 2013, it was Dr. XXX who decided in error that Randy was dying. VCHA decided that it did not want to treat Randy further.

Email to GPC 25 October 2011

This is the contents of an email sent to GPC.  It reminds how Randy wanted to learn and his learning tool went missing.  And to think that VCHA/PGT said that I was not good for Randy.

On Tuesday October 25 2011 when I was returning Randy to your staff at 4:30 he wanted to take the chalk board and chalk and the letterboard with him so I let him.  I thought that was a good sign.  He might want to practise.  On Wednesday and Thursday when I went to see Randy I asked the staff to return to his bedside and retrieve the chalk board, chalk, and letterboard.  The letterboard was in a 1/4" binder decorated with a white and black pattern.  Both times the staff returned and said they could not find the items.  Yesterday being Thursday I also asked Sam and he went to Randy's bedside and returned and said that he cold not find the items but mentioned that he noticed the abundance of educational items I left with Randy over ten months ago.  You might want to search for the chalk board, chalk and binder with the letterboard yourself.  If you can't find the items or they are squirreled away in disarray it might mean a latent hatred for whatever issue one of your staff might have for his/her job. One time before my constructive banning, I found Randy's stuff in total chaos and it concerned me.  I mentioned it to someone but I can't remember who it was.
 

email 28 October 2011

October 28 2011 ... being an email

They did it to me again.  I went to see Randy at 2:00 p.m. and was told by XXX that Randy did not want to get up.  And when I went to see Randy for my allotted five minutes (I am not allowed to stay in the Ward for more than five minutes under supervision) during which time Randy always changes his mind and wants to visit me when he sees me.  Now the charge nurse XXX said that she doesn't have staff to put Randy in his chair so I could not see him in the piano room.  She pulled this on Monday with me as well.  This time I said if there is no staff to put Randy in his chair then I should be allowed to stay at his bedside.  I was told that was impossible. Randy wanted me to stay. I also got a bit upset when I noticed Randy's head (he is primarily bald) had a whole much of scratches breaking his skin.  When I told him I had to leave he won't let go of my hand. I can't stop crying.  ....  I can't help with his rehab if I can only see him a few minutes a week.

Godsgaard, RE 2009 BCSC 891

The best interests of the incapable adult are the paramount consideration when the Court is appointing a committee.  The relative who exhibits devotion and commitment to the adult over a long period of time is to be preferred over others. see Godsgaard, RE 2009 BCSC 891

This most likely will happen if you end up in a courtroom but it will not happen if the public guardian and trustee wants to be committee as there is no due process.  The PGT is a medieval court.  It decides on gossip if a person is incompetent to be a committee by using a Certificate of Incapability.

What they said about me in its confidential assessment as follows. The redacted section that I  uncovered years later:

Question:  Of the people available who was not contacted for collateral information and why.  

Answer : Mr. Walker's friend/partner, Audrey Laferriere, was not contacted as there are concerns about her ability to manage Mr. Walker's financial affairs. 

(1) I was his wife (2) what financial concerns (3) who provided the collateral information (collateral means unproven gossip).  We were asking for 24/7 access to Randy and VCHA denied us access although he was dying and compounded the refusal by banning me from all VCHA properties for life.   

This is how badly the PGT did its investigation, it did not know if I was married to Randy or not. The PGT did not ask me.  Something so basic it could not even get that right.  The only thing they did is take collateral evidence from others as truths. Complaints that were registered with the PGT.  Where did these false truth come from.  What is the motivation of the person(s) who is telling the collateral truth. 

The PGT never attempted to contact Randy's parents. Randy was dying and his parents had the right to know.   The intent was to take control of Randy without any complications.

And I have reason to suspect that the person who provided the collateral information to the PGT was Randy's lawyer who else would bring it up and he de facto garnisheed Randy's money and I did not know it.  He was hired to end the restrictions to visitation that VCHA arbitrarily put on us in 2011.    He never paid attention to Randy or me before Randy had money. He never tried to have the restrictions waived.  He won't give me money from the taxi-TV fund to pay for a companion for a few hours a day when I could not access Randy. I asked him to find a volunteer as he has connections to sit with Randy.  Why the sudden interest three days after the settlement June 2013.  A settlement that I was not fully aware of until after Randy died.  The only thing I knew was that his state-appointed physician and this lawyer made an arrangement that Randy would never leave George Pearson Centre.  And it was obvious to me that the strict restrictions then to accessing Randy would remain or get worse.  After this lawyer was paid $200,000 in fees I had to continue being humiliated by VCHA with the tacit approval of this lawyer, an officer of the court, who was acting in Randy's best interest!  The only best interest this lawyer had was his own.  There were no pre-trial motions or a trial or even an expert witness report for such a fee.  After Randy died I wanted Randy's file and he refused to give it to me.   He never considered what Randy wanted. He never told me what his fee was or that he was even paid.  He told us that there was only enough money for us to take a cab when we wanted to go off site and to buy Randy a flat screen television. He had unlawful conduct of the money.  This goes to show how little this lawyer knew about Randy.  Randy hated cabs.  He would not use one.  Randy already had a 32" flat screen TV that I purchased for him and which I still owed money for on my credit card. At the fatal, without my knowledge confidential assessment 14 March 2014, this lawyer rather than me was there. The same day I filed a Petition in the Supreme Court to visit Randy, the PGT started to fast-tracked the Certificate of Incapability process. The PGT became Committee on April 4 2014 and Randy became a non-person putting an end to our court case to visit, to see each other. Now it was the PGT who controlled everything.  After Randy died I could not get a Steeler's hat from the PGT so I could bury the hat with him.  Randy was a Steeler's fan and wore a Steeler's hat every day, even while sleeping.  The lawyer and the PGT wanted Randy to be cremated. Randy never wanted to be cremated.  Even that wish I  had to fight for.  I could see Randy refusing to answer any questions during the confidential assessment as he hated his lawyer as he betrayed us. And he was not happy with the social worker either.   This lawyer lied and said he was never our lawyer, he was only Randy's lawyer.  And if you asked Randy what he thought of his state-appointed physician, he would show you the bird. And when I told this state-appointed physician about this gesture and that Randy wanted another physician, he said "too bad." When you are dealing with VCHA, the only choice is that you agree with it. 

Randy was a near quad and he could not easily communicate.  He died when he was 57.  I do not understand what he died from.  I was told by VGH that it was multiple organ failure.  But his organs were remarkable.  Remarkable is doctor talk meaning in excellent condition.

He married me because he preferred older women. And I married him because he was the only man that ever truly loved me.  He haunts me every day.

Why did VCHA prevent me from seeing Randy during the last few months of his life... They imprisoned him by saying he was incompetent/too sick. VCHA made the decision who could see him and who could not. And when I sent friends to see him so they would tell him that I was trying to see him, I was told that such covert activity was not allowed. And the visitors were banned.

To demoralize.

From the New Yorker magazine: 9 May 2018:

How to silent family members ....

Hostage-taking is an instrument of terror. Capturing family members, especially children, is a tried-and-true instrument of totalitarian terror. Memoirs of Stalinist terror are full of stories of strong men and women disintegrating when their loved ones are threatened: this is the moment when a person will confess to anything.

In Putin’s Russia, threatening to separate families is a way to rule by fear. It’s a lesson the Trump Administration seems to be learning.

https://www.newyorker.com/news/our-columnists/taking-children-from-their-parents-is-a-form-of-state-terror

Paladin : 3 November 2012

My memory went back to 8:00 pm Saturday 3 November 2012 when I was physically picked up by two Paladin security guards and carried to the laneway between 10th Avenue and Broadway.  I started screaming for someone to call the police.  No one did.  I was illegally assaulted by these brutes.

There was an apartment building on the corner of 10th and Willow full of families.

There was an event at the Blusson Building (also known as the Rick Hansen building) on property that I found later belonged to Vancouver Coastal Health the cost of which building was paid for by the taxpayers of the Province of British Columbia and on which property I was. But, the sidewalk in front of the Blusson Building on 10th and the roadway/sidewalk on Willow are public property. 

There were three security male guards (two of them physically and without warning picked me up) by my arms and dragged/carried me.  I had a pen and paper in my hand.  They said my Bic pen was a weapon.  My purse was left on a sidewalk, and they took me to the alley.  My feet were six inches off the sidewalks as we travelled. I was screaming for someone to call the police.  Paladin had no right to do this. No one did... haunting memories. No one would help.

 How your rights can be violated by a $12.00 an hour security guard.

And, now, Paladin seems to be everywhere, even in the courthouse...and guards are wearing heavy construction/military steel-toed military boots in Oakridge Mall.

I still hear that woman Paladin security guard from 13 April 2014 who run up to the ICU in VGH calling "where is she."  This was in resopnse to the male nurse who told me that I could not sit /lie next to Randy as he died.  He said (a) it was a liability concer; and then (2) the bed belong to VCH and I was not allowed on it.

This from a 20-year veteran in the ICU.  Do these people not think.  And we trust them with our lives.