In an email to Kip Woodward, Chairman of Vancouver Coastal Health Authority, I said that I was tired of being told that I wanting Randy to live is not in Randy's best interest.
This e-mail was written on July 27 2013.
The day before when his DNR was changed to FULL CODE, Randy lived for a further nine months. If he had a DNR, he would have died, as he could not have accessed the intensive care unit that saved his life.
If I was not banned from seeing Randy, he might have lived longer.
Thursday, December 27, 2018
Monday, December 24, 2018
31 August 2013 ... e-mail
He is demanding that I spend more and more time with him as he is afraid. I do nothing except sit there and hold his hand which ends his anxiety.
And then they ban me 24/7. Whose best interest are they protecting.
Justice McEwan
Mr. Justice McEwan.... A society that is governed by demoncratic principles is a society governed by the rule of law, the principle that the law applies to every person including the government and its agents ... the court is a public form in which individuals may call the powerful including government, to account, compelling them to meet as equals.
Physicians are agents of the government, through its College, as is the Public Guardian and Trustee, and Vancouver Coastal Health.
Physicians are agents of the government, through its College, as is the Public Guardian and Trustee, and Vancouver Coastal Health.
Friday, December 21, 2018
Wednesday, December 19, 2018
Email to Louise Kokotailo, secretary to Kip Woodward
It is I who has to be protected from you staff, not the other way around. You might tell Kip that no one is afraid of me ....they are afraid of VCHA because if this can happen to me ....then it can happen to them. Visitors, staff and residents will all be afraid to speak out.
A reverse SLAPP suit.
Thursday, December 13, 2018
Hastening Death . . .
On Wed, Nov 27, 2013 at 3:25 AM, Hospice Patients Alliance
When they wish to end someone's life, they find a way, and they do it. This has happened to hundreds of thousands of patients throughout the USA, Canada and elsewhere, as you must know from reading the Stealth Euthanasia book. They hasten death by not properly treating patients and not providing basic care and medications or interventions. They also give medications that hasten death in one way or another.
Ron Panzer
for Hospice Patients Alliance
www.hospicepatients.org
Stealth Euthanasia book in on-line. (free)
Addition, December 17, 2018.
Wording from an email:
If you deal with VGH you are not allowed to talk, you are not allowed to make friends with anyone, you are not allowed to send an email, you are not allowed to face your accusers, and above all, you cannot be an advocate. I had a power of attorney and representation agreement which VCHA ignored.
Friday, December 7, 2018
Slow Genocide at VCHA
I am not feeling very well today. My mind is overwhelmed with what has happened. We are supposed to be living in a safe country and we should not fear for our lives if we become sick or disabled or old.
I know that I have been a witness to a continuing slow genocide. And no one wants to talk about it. The stats are hidden in confidentiality.
They said my husband was chronic so they put a DNR/DNT/CCO Order on him. Being chronic does not mean that he was going to die. And the drastic measure of a DNR,DNT,CCO Order was not necessary.
And they created a scenario that I was the problem and not them.
During WWII the Nazi doctors killed because those targetted were going to die anyways as there was a war;
Now the doctors kill with impunity because those targetted have no quality of life. Ration treatment and they will die soon enough.
Both times the doctors (in WW11 and now) were doing a favour for those who were targetted and for those who were not targetted. Familes and the state were unburdened.
In 2010 I was told by a social worker that I should abandon Randy as the government (PGT) will look after him. I should have known from that point to be afraid.
I know that I have been a witness to a continuing slow genocide. And no one wants to talk about it. The stats are hidden in confidentiality.
They said my husband was chronic so they put a DNR/DNT/CCO Order on him. Being chronic does not mean that he was going to die. And the drastic measure of a DNR,DNT,CCO Order was not necessary.
And they created a scenario that I was the problem and not them.
During WWII the Nazi doctors killed because those targetted were going to die anyways as there was a war;
Now the doctors kill with impunity because those targetted have no quality of life. Ration treatment and they will die soon enough.
Both times the doctors (in WW11 and now) were doing a favour for those who were targetted and for those who were not targetted. Familes and the state were unburdened.
In 2010 I was told by a social worker that I should abandon Randy as the government (PGT) will look after him. I should have known from that point to be afraid.
Thursday, December 6, 2018
My blog from 29 March 2014, then on April 4, 2014, VCH issued a Certificate of Incapability revoking my power of attorney. Randy died on April 13, 2014.
The PGT/VCHA already had constructively revoked my representation agreement without a court order. They said I abused Randy. I failed to agree with VCHA that Randy should have a DNR/DNT/CCO Order on him. Because he gets pneumonia that does not say it was necessary to hasten his death. VCHA was supposed to have treated him not put him on a pathway to death. It was a deliberate plan to make Randy a non-person and make sure that I have no contact with Randy.
On January 29 2014 I received a letter from VCH saying that I can't visit Randy who is a quad and can't talk for three months because of my disrespectful conduct. What is MY disrespectful conduct and what has that got to do with seeing Randy. I am his only advocate and friend and VCH has this idea to punish him like in a third world so I do not say anything. GPC is supposed to be a residential community it is not acute care or intensive care so disrespectful conduct would have a different meaning. For example, what your behavior is in your church is different than your behavior in your home. At GPC the method of living is the Eden principle where it is a home-like atmosphere based on being spontaneous and showing emotion.
The truth is VCH does not want me to talk to anyone and tell them of my experiences of what really VCH is doing. Think about it. Having mostly all residents of GPC agree to a Do Not Transfer Order so that if they need acute care they in all probability will die at GPC as GPC is not equipped to handle acute emergencies. I thought Do Not Resuscitate Orders were bad enough but coupled with Do Not Transfer it means certain death. That is what they really mean by disrespectful behavior. They want visitors classified as employees and everything I see or hear is supposed to be confidential and away from the public ear and eye. There is in my mind no other reason for it. Most of the residents at GPC do not even know what a DNR or a DNT means.
Like Ro the manager told me most residents know they are going to die and they have accepted it. I do not believe her. Ro reminds me of an angel with the keys to purgatory as that is what Dr. Tam told me GPC was.
It has been eight months since the first Full Code intervention in August 2013 stopped Randy's imminent death and Randy may live many more months or years if a DNR/DNT Orders are not forced on him without him knowing. I was told by a lawyer who deals with health care at the Bentley court case and he said that unconsented to DNRs are common in the medical community. A nurse at that hearing also told me that. It doesn't matter how old you are if you are going to cost the medical system you will be convinced that you have no quality of life so you might as well be dead. And if you won't agree they will find a way to do it anyways; they will get your relatives to agree. At GPC they isolate you until you give up and die.
There has to be a public inquiry into GPC and VGH as to DNRs and resultant deaths. There has to be stats available. If public policy is to kill the chronic ill then we the public should know about it.
I reported this to the Public Guardian and Trustee and the Ministry of Health and nothing came of it. They must know what is going on.
The PGT/VCHA already had constructively revoked my representation agreement without a court order. They said I abused Randy. I failed to agree with VCHA that Randy should have a DNR/DNT/CCO Order on him. Because he gets pneumonia that does not say it was necessary to hasten his death. VCHA was supposed to have treated him not put him on a pathway to death. It was a deliberate plan to make Randy a non-person and make sure that I have no contact with Randy.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
If you want to hasten your life do not agree to DNRs.
From October 14 2013 Randy was in a private room with me having very very little access to anyone as a security guard was posted outside and I was not allowed to talk to anyone. So why didn't they leave me there with Randy. Why did they move him to a Ward where the phantoms that are afraid of me are stationed. There is more to this than just my questionable disrespectful conduct. During the time from October 14 2013 to January 29 2014 I know of no incident that would be described as disrespectful or any mention as such.
Like Ro the manager told me most residents know they are going to die and they have accepted it. I do not believe her. Ro reminds me of an angel with the keys to purgatory as that is what Dr. Tam told me GPC was.
It has been eight months since the first Full Code intervention in August 2013 stopped Randy's imminent death and Randy may live many more months or years if a DNR/DNT Orders are not forced on him without him knowing. I was told by a lawyer who deals with health care at the Bentley court case and he said that unconsented to DNRs are common in the medical community. A nurse at that hearing also told me that. It doesn't matter how old you are if you are going to cost the medical system you will be convinced that you have no quality of life so you might as well be dead. And if you won't agree they will find a way to do it anyways; they will get your relatives to agree. At GPC they isolate you until you give up and die.
There has to be a public inquiry into GPC and VGH as to DNRs and resultant deaths. There has to be stats available. If public policy is to kill the chronic ill then we the public should know about it.
I reported this to the Public Guardian and Trustee and the Ministry of Health and nothing came of it. They must know what is going on.
Saturday, December 1, 2018
Thinking of Randy and Carolanne
I keep on thinking of Randy and Carolanne.
The first time I saw Carolanne on February 26 2017 she had secretions caked like cement in her mouth. She was forced to breathe through her nose. I immediately dislodged the thick secretions. That evening I sent an email to her physician, Dr. Richard Hay. He never answered my email.
On February 28 2017 I saw Carolanne again and she again had secretions but not as bad as on February 26 2017.
I was told I would be arrested as VCHA had a restraining order against me. That was not true, but when gossip gets to low-level security and staff it scares me, as I was not going to be put in a position to be violenced again by cretins. There was talk of a restraining order in 2014 which never materialized. But this is 2018.
If patients are made uncomfortable for long periods of time, this type of slow torture will make them want to stop treatment which would mean death for patients, like Carolanne, as she is on a ventilator. Death by a thousand knives.
The first time I saw Carolanne on February 26 2017 she had secretions caked like cement in her mouth. She was forced to breathe through her nose. I immediately dislodged the thick secretions. That evening I sent an email to her physician, Dr. Richard Hay. He never answered my email.
On February 28 2017 I saw Carolanne again and she again had secretions but not as bad as on February 26 2017.
I was told I would be arrested as VCHA had a restraining order against me. That was not true, but when gossip gets to low-level security and staff it scares me, as I was not going to be put in a position to be violenced again by cretins. There was talk of a restraining order in 2014 which never materialized. But this is 2018.
If patients are made uncomfortable for long periods of time, this type of slow torture will make them want to stop treatment which would mean death for patients, like Carolanne, as she is on a ventilator. Death by a thousand knives.
Monday, November 26, 2018
Affidavit Exhibit "B"
The Defendants in its case planning conference introduction neglected (to tell the Master) that I was wanting to make the Defendants accountable who all had a hand in hastening my husband's death and me becoming a basket case. VCHA put an unlawful DNR/DNR/CCO Order on my husband when he was not imminent. There was no mention in the medical records that my husband had taken a turn for the worse. My husband suffered from an accident and he was only 57 when he die.
Part of Exhibit "B" of Affidavit filed in the Supreme Court of British Columbia
Monday, the 26th day of November, 2018, exact wording.
Monday, the 26th day of November, 2018, exact wording.
Thursday, November 8, 2018
The role of a Lawyer, Law society of British Columbia
The role of a lawyer (Law Society of British Columbia)
A lawyer is a minister of justice, an officer of the courts, a client's advocate and a member of an ancient, honourable and learned profession.
It is a lawyer's duty to promote the interests of the state and to serve the cause of justice.
It is also to maintain the authority and dignity of the courts.
A lawyer is a minister of justice, an officer of the courts, a client's advocate and a member of an ancient, honourable and learned profession.
It is a lawyer's duty to promote the interests of the state and to serve the cause of justice.
It is also to maintain the authority and dignity of the courts.
Wednesday, November 7, 2018
What utter cruelty .... this is what I faced everyday for four years ..deliberate harassment/bullying
Email from February 12 2014
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2014-02-12 3:51 AM 50594
Jason one of our neighbours went to see Randy around 4:00 pm. with little Owen, Randy's doggie. I had asked Jason to put Randy's landline phone in the wall plug so it would work.
Staff said that I wasn't allowed to talk to Randy on the phone.
I have been paying $30.00 a month for Randy's TELUS line for two years now and now I can't talk to Randy on the phone.
Randy can't even talk or even hold the phone in his hand.
The purpose of the phone was a vehicle I would use to phone Randy daily. I would let it ring four times so he knew I was thinking of him.
What utter cruelty.
Jason wanted to stay at least one hour with Randy but security told him he had to leave after twenty minutes.
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2014-02-12 3:51 AM 50594
Jason one of our neighbours went to see Randy around 4:00 pm. with little Owen, Randy's doggie. I had asked Jason to put Randy's landline phone in the wall plug so it would work.
Staff said that I wasn't allowed to talk to Randy on the phone.
I have been paying $30.00 a month for Randy's TELUS line for two years now and now I can't talk to Randy on the phone.
Randy can't even talk or even hold the phone in his hand.
The purpose of the phone was a vehicle I would use to phone Randy daily. I would let it ring four times so he knew I was thinking of him.
What utter cruelty.
Jason wanted to stay at least one hour with Randy but security told him he had to leave after twenty minutes.
Monday, November 5, 2018
2014-9-6 Email to lawyer for PGT
An email from April 6 2014 to the lawyer for the Public Guardian and Trustee.
From: Audrey Laferriere
Date: Sun, Apr 6, 2014 at 9:31 AM
Subject: Re: R Walker
To: Murray Wolf
I just came across your email. I did not know who was going to represent Randy until now. I suspect it is a bit late for us to get together. A lawyer told me that it was good that the Trustee was involved because you the lawyer would be able to help me. I hope so.
Very briefly I was able to have Don Morrison advise me on Friday. At least I hope nothing goes wrong. He hasn't had much time to go over the information so I do not know if he will be asking for a further adjournment or not.
I hope you do not consent to the VCH's new proposed order that no agents (friends) of mine attend at GPC. This is a wrong step. The friends I ask to go and see Randy three of them are retired RNs so they can tell me his state of health. Each time I talk to Sam the social worker; it is always don't worry he is okay. Nothing out of the ordinary.
From Wednesday I was told that Randy was unresponsive and could barely lift his head off the pillow. I got a phone call from Pierre that said Randy was dying and he won't last the night. At that time I was with Mr. Morrison and we went by taxi to see Randy.
Morrison called ahead of time that he wanted to see Randy. When he got there with me Ro and Tanu would not let me in to see Randy and Don said Randy looked okay he was sitting in his wheelchair sleeping with his Steeler's hat on. I said to Don he never sleeps when he is in his wheelchair.
Later I spoke to Pierre and he said Randy was in his bed at the time he called me. This was at 12:30 so the nurses propped him up to look reasonable. Pierre said that Randy was not sleeping; he was in a comma.
Within an hour when I got home there was an email saying that Randy was sent to VGH for observation. He had septis. Septis is the leading cause of death in the US in ICUs and Randy was sent to a ICU stepdown unit. I went there and saw him and he was out-of-it but I noticed he had a very large bedsore/ucler which was black on his heel. You get these wounds if you do not move, the blood stops circulating and amputation could happen. GPC puts him in a wheelchair and he sits in its for nine hours at a time.
At VGH at the same time Security came waiving the Trespass letter and I was asked to leave. I waited on the sidewalk for five hours at Emergency until a friend came out and said that Randy was starting to look okay. Later I was told that he is in a stepdown ward on the 10th floor. His doctor Dr. Mackie who I phoned would not allow me to see Randy "as he did not known me" and had to go by the Trespass Order but he told me Randy is okay for at least the weekend. They were watching Randy very carefully.
He said that Randy had sepsis pneumonia.
Randy is close to death and I can't be with him.
Just about everything in the Assessment Report is not true. For close to two years I took Randy home for the afternoon and yet Calder said I would take him home without authoritization. Calder is so used to writing confidential reports that he doesn't do proper research because they never go anywhere to be challenged. A star chamber is what VCH has become.
The incident of October 21/22, 2013 was caused by GPC and I did was act in self-defence. I wanted the police to charge those who assaulted and imprisoned Randy but they refused. The LPN Stephanie said that Randy was choking and his face was red created this lie later. In Randy's condition he would never have a red face something to do with his trach and breathing and I had just suctioned him five minutes earlier. He doesn't get enough blood into his face, he always looks pale. But then Stephanie is a LPN won't know that.
I protect Randy like a mother bear protects her cubs. It is a natural instinct and I should not be punished for it and Randy being punished which is bizarre. He is going to die soon; even I know that.
Up until January 29 2013 Randy had a private room which was rather isolated so I had very little contact with staff and then on the 29th they moved him to the open ward which forced the issue of my removal so I could not see Randy because the staff, visitors and residents were afraid of me.
None of these groups are afraid of me. When I first got banned I asked over a year those on Randy's team about the banning and none of them said they even knew about the banning. I asked residents and visitors and none of them were aware of my banning.
If Mr. Morrison got in touch with you yet, I can't send his contact information as he never gave it to me on Friday so I wait. I have a meeting with him at 10:00 am on Monday at the RayCam community centre. My cell phone is 778-689-2276.
Is it possible that a nurse can be hired so I can take Randy home and if there is a problem I can call 911.
__________________
Subject:
Audrey
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2014-03-24 6:14 PM
To:
"Coughlin, Kevin" PGT
I just got a disturbing phone call from Paul, a retired RN who went to see Randy. He told me not to freak out but Randy was looking really bad. He had to search for a nurse. It looked like he wasn't' suctioned since the morniing shift. He was enveloped in mucous. And he was coughing and coughing. Finally a nurse came by and suctioned him. Paul also said that he had a high fever and he might end up at VGH. And I am banned from seeing him even if he goes to VGH.
I am so afraid that he is going to die and I won't be there.
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And what did Kevin do, NOTHING
From: Audrey Laferriere
Date: Sun, Apr 6, 2014 at 9:31 AM
Subject: Re: R Walker
To: Murray Wolf
I just came across your email. I did not know who was going to represent Randy until now. I suspect it is a bit late for us to get together. A lawyer told me that it was good that the Trustee was involved because you the lawyer would be able to help me. I hope so.
Very briefly I was able to have Don Morrison advise me on Friday. At least I hope nothing goes wrong. He hasn't had much time to go over the information so I do not know if he will be asking for a further adjournment or not.
I hope you do not consent to the VCH's new proposed order that no agents (friends) of mine attend at GPC. This is a wrong step. The friends I ask to go and see Randy three of them are retired RNs so they can tell me his state of health. Each time I talk to Sam the social worker; it is always don't worry he is okay. Nothing out of the ordinary.
From Wednesday I was told that Randy was unresponsive and could barely lift his head off the pillow. I got a phone call from Pierre that said Randy was dying and he won't last the night. At that time I was with Mr. Morrison and we went by taxi to see Randy.
Later I spoke to Pierre and he said Randy was in his bed at the time he called me. This was at 12:30 so the nurses propped him up to look reasonable. Pierre said that Randy was not sleeping; he was in a comma.
Within an hour when I got home there was an email saying that Randy was sent to VGH for observation. He had septis. Septis is the leading cause of death in the US in ICUs and Randy was sent to a ICU stepdown unit. I went there and saw him and he was out-of-it but I noticed he had a very large bedsore/ucler which was black on his heel. You get these wounds if you do not move, the blood stops circulating and amputation could happen. GPC puts him in a wheelchair and he sits in its for nine hours at a time.
At VGH at the same time Security came waiving the Trespass letter and I was asked to leave. I waited on the sidewalk for five hours at Emergency until a friend came out and said that Randy was starting to look okay. Later I was told that he is in a stepdown ward on the 10th floor. His doctor Dr. Mackie who I phoned would not allow me to see Randy "as he did not known me" and had to go by the Trespass Order but he told me Randy is okay for at least the weekend. They were watching Randy very carefully.
He said that Randy had sepsis pneumonia.
Randy is close to death and I can't be with him.
Just about everything in the Assessment Report is not true. For close to two years I took Randy home for the afternoon and yet Calder said I would take him home without authoritization. Calder is so used to writing confidential reports that he doesn't do proper research because they never go anywhere to be challenged. A star chamber is what VCH has become.
The incident of October 21/22, 2013 was caused by GPC and I did was act in self-defence. I wanted the police to charge those who assaulted and imprisoned Randy but they refused. The LPN Stephanie said that Randy was choking and his face was red created this lie later. In Randy's condition he would never have a red face something to do with his trach and breathing and I had just suctioned him five minutes earlier. He doesn't get enough blood into his face, he always looks pale. But then Stephanie is a LPN won't know that.
I protect Randy like a mother bear protects her cubs. It is a natural instinct and I should not be punished for it and Randy being punished which is bizarre. He is going to die soon; even I know that.
Up until January 29 2013 Randy had a private room which was rather isolated so I had very little contact with staff and then on the 29th they moved him to the open ward which forced the issue of my removal so I could not see Randy because the staff, visitors and residents were afraid of me.
None of these groups are afraid of me. When I first got banned I asked over a year those on Randy's team about the banning and none of them said they even knew about the banning. I asked residents and visitors and none of them were aware of my banning.
If Mr. Morrison got in touch with you yet, I can't send his contact information as he never gave it to me on Friday so I wait. I have a meeting with him at 10:00 am on Monday at the RayCam community centre. My cell phone is 778-689-2276.
Is it possible that a nurse can be hired so I can take Randy home and if there is a problem I can call 911.
__________________
Subject:
Audrey
From:
Audrey Laferriere
Date:
2014-03-24 6:14 PM
To:
"Coughlin, Kevin" PGT
I just got a disturbing phone call from Paul, a retired RN who went to see Randy. He told me not to freak out but Randy was looking really bad. He had to search for a nurse. It looked like he wasn't' suctioned since the morniing shift. He was enveloped in mucous. And he was coughing and coughing. Finally a nurse came by and suctioned him. Paul also said that he had a high fever and he might end up at VGH. And I am banned from seeing him even if he goes to VGH.
I am so afraid that he is going to die and I won't be there.
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And what did Kevin do, NOTHING
Sunday, October 14, 2018
14 October 2018 Sunday @ 6:17 pm
I have been trying to go over the litigation paperwork. I can barely read it. I can't. The lies are so huge they have to be believed. And I can't defend them. It is pointless.
Kevin Calder did a report Workplace Violence Assessment for VCHA. His reporting skills should get him fired.
He says that someone observed me attempting to hit or run over staff with Randy's electric wheel chair. That sounds lethal, a 2,000 lb vehicle. I should have been charged with attempted murder, except that never happened as Randy did not have an electric wheel chair.
Who would dispute what he would write as he is an expert in Workplace Assessment of Violence Methodology (WAVR-21) and he is licensed.
He did not even read my blog, he remarked that he only reviewed it.
Why would VCHA give a title to an employee "Workplace Violence Specialist." It only means that the WVS has to look for violence in order to keep his job.
It is easy to write confidential reports if you write what your boss expects and nothing will ever go to litigation.
Everytime I try to peruse what happened I get agitated after a few paragraphs. Sometimes it only takes one sentence. I cannot read anything further. It is like going into shock. It is surreal. The pain and anger I do not want to meet.
Kevin Calder did a report Workplace Violence Assessment for VCHA. His reporting skills should get him fired.
He says that someone observed me attempting to hit or run over staff with Randy's electric wheel chair. That sounds lethal, a 2,000 lb vehicle. I should have been charged with attempted murder, except that never happened as Randy did not have an electric wheel chair.
Who would dispute what he would write as he is an expert in Workplace Assessment of Violence Methodology (WAVR-21) and he is licensed.
He did not even read my blog, he remarked that he only reviewed it.
Why would VCHA give a title to an employee "Workplace Violence Specialist." It only means that the WVS has to look for violence in order to keep his job.
It is easy to write confidential reports if you write what your boss expects and nothing will ever go to litigation.
Everytime I try to peruse what happened I get agitated after a few paragraphs. Sometimes it only takes one sentence. I cannot read anything further. It is like going into shock. It is surreal. The pain and anger I do not want to meet.
Wednesday, October 10, 2018
10 October 2018 @ 7:16 am Wednesday
I haven't been able to sleep much this past week. I just woke up and I was relieved that I was not anxious over the litigation, or seeing Randy, or thinking of Carolanne. I was thinking about "legwarmers."
Years ago I came up with the idea to knit legwarmers for the homeless. Not only for the homeless but also those that are in hospital and those elders that cannot afford to pay to heat their apartments.
I knew I needed help as only one person can only knit one pair at a time. I needed an army of volunteers to knit them and a PR campaign to educate the homeless and others to wear them. So, I approached Janice Abbott from Atira that has a craft section. My idea did not fit into her retail model.
However, Janice was positive to what I wanted to do and would help as much as she could but she said that I would have to organize it. Randy was in hospital then and I was spiraling to being a basket case. At that time I couldn't organize a trip to New Westminster.
This idea coincides with my psychologist who suggested last week that I find something to do with my life to combat my wishful thinking to end it all. There must be something I enjoy doing. I assured him that I took no joy in anything. He suggested volunteering. Not so easy at my age.
Both Randy and Carolanne were taken away from me by VCHA. And Ro said that I would never be able to volunteer anywhere . She would make sure that would happen. Like what she did on 4 April 2014 when she phoned VGH Emergency saying not to allow me to see Randy. Randy was dying and she knew it. This direction came from a woman who visited her mother in a residential care facility every single day.
Prior to April 4 2014 I never was restricted from visiting Randy at VGH. What happened at GPC had nothing to do with VGH. Ro made the decision to send Randy to VGH as she knew he would die that weekend which would have happened if Don Morrison, a lawyer, did not visit Randy at 11:00 am. At 12:00 pm I got a phone call saying that Randy was being transferred to VGH for observation. She knew Randy was with a serious infection and imminent. And now Randy was VGH's problem. Randy died nine days later in intensive care. 13 April 2014 @ 8:00 pm
My psychologist will be happy that I now have a "maybe" goal. A goal that was not forced on me. A goal that would bring relief (i.e. joy) to those that are cold.
Why legwarmers/armwarmers are a good idea is because they are needed. The wool yarn should be easy to get donated by Value Village considering that it sends to landfill 98% of garments they do not sell. The yarn would not be in skeins, it would have to be recovered/recycled/unraveled from sweaters/garments already knitted by volunteers. It would be time consuming and if measured in dollars expensive. But what is the $value of a life or $save the environment. It would not matter the weight or colour matching as the legwarmers would be worn under blue jeans/pj bottoms. They would not be a fashion accessory but rather a necessity. The best part of this idea is that the legwarmer can also be used as a armwarmer, a scarf, or a hat fastened by a safety pin. They would seldom need washing, if ever. The pattern is easy: knit one; plural one, see internet. Pull the armwarmer down a bit, and you have a mitten. Pull the legwarmer down a bit, and you have a toe-less sock. Such a simple garment for the homeless, and others, so they are not cold.
Repurposing is environmentally sound. .
Great idea but I won;t be able to do much until my bereavement is lessened. Even with supports it will take time. Having one or two good days will not alleviate my pain.
Tuesday, October 9, 2018
9 October 2018 Tuesday 12:30 pm
ndy andCarolanne was taken away from and VCHA/PGT damaged my reputation sol I could not volunteer at a non-profit agency.
this is the second time I have tried to write this post and the contents mostly disappeared. Now I am frustrated and angry that maybe someone is hacking my new post. It is stressful.
this is the second time I have tried to write this post and the contents mostly disappeared. Now I am frustrated and angry that maybe someone is hacking my new post. It is stressful.
Sunday, October 7, 2018
Gaslighting
You are to resign from the law society of british columbia and spend the rest of your life doing free community service in the DTES. You know what you did so I do not have to explain it. Rather than guilt you must be experiencing great satisfaction. You client starting my basket case in 2010 and you ultimately improved the basket to itd ultimate conclusion. It only took eight years.
As I think back as to what really triggered me besides the bereavement, it was the pressure of being a self-litigant. I could not get a lawyer as all of them were in conflict with VCHA/government. That is, VCHA/PGT throughout the years gave all the lawyers work so they were all in conflict so they could not act for me. In decades past this was called "a company town." All I had to mention is VCHA/PGT and the lawyer showed me the door. I knew I was in trouble because none of the lawyers I approached asked for a $retainer.
Although the judiciary is independent you could still use the rules to advance/be successful. You could win by technical default and a judge finally getting to the end of his patience with dealing with an old woman.
Although the judiciary is independent you could still use the rules to advance/be successful. You could win by technical default and a judge finally getting to the end of his patience with dealing with an old woman.
A requirement is full disclosure of all the emails which I was not able to fully list. One batch is 67,000 emails. There is no mechanism in email to just command gmail to print out everything. It has to be done one email at a time. From 1 to 67,702. Since not being a lawyer I do not know what is relevant or not. So each email had/has to be printed out and then each email/document has to be listed and typed out according to the rules of the supreme court of british columbia which list would be hundreds/thousands of pages. Considering the time demands by the supreme court of british columbia to do things, it is/was impossible. The defendants knew of my problems with listing the emails but not one of them offered a suggestion how I could fast track the process. And they all knew how to do it.
With the new gmail(this week) there is a function which I just found wherein you can just type in a party's name and a list shows each email associated with that name. Rather than shifting through thousands of emails all I had to do was individually search by searching by the name of the party. By magic all the emails I sent to Kip Woodward, the president of VCHA, showed up. All I had to do was print them out.
You knew this and yet you intentionally overwhelmed me to the point of not wanting to do this.
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You were advised nine days ago that Randy has the right to see me so why haven't you done anything to make this happen. A lawyer wrote telling you of my rights
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I am entitled to see Randy, to his medical records on demand, and to talk to those that do health care for him..
Also I want Randy's heart monitor alarm to be set at 110 as 150 or greater would lead Randy into cardiac arrest (death).
When Randy nearly died on November 18 2013 and December 26 2013 the alarms did not alarm.A few days ago I got a flippant answer from Ro who said she talked to the RT and 150 was safe.
Sunday, September 30, 2018
30 September 2018 @ 2::50 am
This past week has been very difficult for me. Although I am in fragile mental health I am haunted that the defendants are taunting me with JUMP JUMP. JUMP off a tall building to my death.
A few months ago when I was wanting to end it all, a reader of this blog phoned the Public Guardian and Trustee in the hope that the PGT would intervene and finally the caller was directed to Kevin Couglin who told the caller that the PGT does not do death.
Thinking back the caller was using reverse psychology. Don't do this as this is what the PGT/VCHA wants.
My thoughts go back to Randy and the tears he had. He did not want to die either. We only wanted to see each other and VCH/PGT prevented us from doing so.
In correspondence dated 26 September 2018 from the Public Guardian and Trustee I was accused of wanting to delay the completion of the litigation INDEFINITELY. That is not true, it is the Public Guardian and Trustee that is delaying the completion of the litigation by threats of using the Courts to overrule my physician's diagnosis that I am not well by upsetting me. I need treatment/time before I can realistically proceed with the litigation. This litigation did not seriously start until September 2017. Up to then I was hoping for some sort of apology from VCH/PGT. None came.
Simply put, I need an adjournment and the PGT is refusing to give me one by consent. Apparently according to the PGT/VCHA the law will be on their side.
Defending a court application is very taxing emotionally and expensive and the defendants know this. In my fragile state it is extremely overwhelming and equally paralyzing with or without a lawyer.
With every veiled threat by the defendants to use the rules of court, my recovery is being further hindered and the time needed is extended. I cannot focus on getting well. It is the defendants who are causing the litigation to be delayed not me.
The list of defendants/witnesses who agree with the PGT/VCHA are as follows. Each one of them are willing to gamble that I will take my life: Over what? A simple request for an adjournment because I am suffering from complex bereavement and persistent PTSD. The defendants/witnesses know that I am actively suicidal. to be actively suicidal one has to have a plan and I have one.
Vancouver Coastal Health
Vancouver General Hospital
George Pearson Centre
Kip Woodward
The Public Guardian and Trustee
BC College of Physician and Surgeons
WorkSafe BC
BC Emergency Health Services
Andrew Macfarlane
Dr. James Dunne
Dr. Richard Hay
Dr. James Mark Roberts
Sam Greenspoon
Robert Chapman
Kevin Calder
Dr. Georgina Nemetz (psychologist)
Linda Rose
Tanvirezohra Batlawala
Romilda Ang
David Doig
Tim Louis
and Others
A few months ago when I was wanting to end it all, a reader of this blog phoned the Public Guardian and Trustee in the hope that the PGT would intervene and finally the caller was directed to Kevin Couglin who told the caller that the PGT does not do death.
Thinking back the caller was using reverse psychology. Don't do this as this is what the PGT/VCHA wants.
My thoughts go back to Randy and the tears he had. He did not want to die either. We only wanted to see each other and VCH/PGT prevented us from doing so.
In correspondence dated 26 September 2018 from the Public Guardian and Trustee I was accused of wanting to delay the completion of the litigation INDEFINITELY. That is not true, it is the Public Guardian and Trustee that is delaying the completion of the litigation by threats of using the Courts to overrule my physician's diagnosis that I am not well by upsetting me. I need treatment/time before I can realistically proceed with the litigation. This litigation did not seriously start until September 2017. Up to then I was hoping for some sort of apology from VCH/PGT. None came.
Simply put, I need an adjournment and the PGT is refusing to give me one by consent. Apparently according to the PGT/VCHA the law will be on their side.
Defending a court application is very taxing emotionally and expensive and the defendants know this. In my fragile state it is extremely overwhelming and equally paralyzing with or without a lawyer.
With every veiled threat by the defendants to use the rules of court, my recovery is being further hindered and the time needed is extended. I cannot focus on getting well. It is the defendants who are causing the litigation to be delayed not me.
The list of defendants/witnesses who agree with the PGT/VCHA are as follows. Each one of them are willing to gamble that I will take my life: Over what? A simple request for an adjournment because I am suffering from complex bereavement and persistent PTSD. The defendants/witnesses know that I am actively suicidal. to be actively suicidal one has to have a plan and I have one.
Vancouver Coastal Health
Vancouver General Hospital
George Pearson Centre
Kip Woodward
The Public Guardian and Trustee
BC College of Physician and Surgeons
WorkSafe BC
BC Emergency Health Services
Andrew Macfarlane
Dr. James Dunne
Dr. Richard Hay
Dr. James Mark Roberts
Sam Greenspoon
Robert Chapman
Kevin Calder
Dr. Georgina Nemetz (psychologist)
Linda Rose
Tanvirezohra Batlawala
Romilda Ang
David Doig
Tim Louis
and Others
Saturday, September 29, 2018
Thursday, September 27, 2018
27 September 2018 @ 4:00 am in the morning
When I read the above letter which was forwarded to me dated September 26 2018 written by Catherine Romanko, the PGT, I could not believe it. I read it at 4:00 in the morning. The letter said that I was not ill and they were calling for a summary court trial within days so that my supreme court action against the PGT would be dismissed.
This with her full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. After years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect. My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidal.
And who are these people: The Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician and Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this. How mean are they. It is the self-interest of themselves, their reputations, that they are interested in perserving. It has nothing to do about protecting the public, or my rights, or the rights of anyone else.
The 4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide. I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and I only have daily flashbacks over them not letting me see him before he died. Besides I am old. I am at the end of my life. No lose to anyone.
They banned me from Randy as I had to be protected from Randy knowing he was dying he suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying. He could not protect me as he could not talk or write. And the PGT in 2014 with its quasi-judicial powers would not let me see him. Both VCHA and the PGT could have arranged it. How could I hurt him, he was a vegetable with a mind. He had a brain injury which made him a quad although he could move his head a bit and his right hand a bit. That was the cruelest thing any government body could do. But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. And if they are pressured enough to give you a reason, the reason is suspect.
How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy. The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA. They previously had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might do something security was there, but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward. I could not visit Randy because those on the ward were afraid of me so I could never see Randy again. No one was afraid of me it was only an excuse by the nurses because they resented being ordered by Tanu to watch me rather than do their jobs to other patients.
All these agencies were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.
I remember when I was during a history paper 40-years ago on the West Coast Indians what happened when a tribe member committed suicide. A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed. A life for a life. Maybe we should go back to those days.
I was not convicted of any criminal offence. In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work. So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me. All this is designed to have a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them. They will not apology or settle. They isolate, discredit and demoralize. It is a policy that all employees follow once a person is targetted.
When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke (Deputy police chief) he investigated, and he said that never happened. Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying. How could I prove it. Did it really matter because then they got WCB to agree so the employees are safe from me from what I do not know. I was a basket case. I was incapable of premeditating anything. And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do.
I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless. One doctor was threatened not to be a second opinion and they threatened that he would be denied hospital privileges. What did he ask? He said, BUT, WHAT DID SHE DO. And I was asked to take down my blog by him which I did for a period of time for his sake. I thought by doing so things would get better but they did not. I remember being told his livelihood and that of his family was at stake.
I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it. But the time it takes to write it, it calms me, and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid. I cry as I write, each word is a tear, each sentence become a cascade of tears. I slowly become exhausted, and then I can sleep.
This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.
This with her full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. After years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect. My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidal.
And who are these people: The Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician and Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this. How mean are they. It is the self-interest of themselves, their reputations, that they are interested in perserving. It has nothing to do about protecting the public, or my rights, or the rights of anyone else.
The 4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide. I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and I only have daily flashbacks over them not letting me see him before he died. Besides I am old. I am at the end of my life. No lose to anyone.
They banned me from Randy as I had to be protected from Randy knowing he was dying he suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying. He could not protect me as he could not talk or write. And the PGT in 2014 with its quasi-judicial powers would not let me see him. Both VCHA and the PGT could have arranged it. How could I hurt him, he was a vegetable with a mind. He had a brain injury which made him a quad although he could move his head a bit and his right hand a bit. That was the cruelest thing any government body could do. But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. And if they are pressured enough to give you a reason, the reason is suspect.
How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy. The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA. They previously had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might do something security was there, but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward. I could not visit Randy because those on the ward were afraid of me so I could never see Randy again. No one was afraid of me it was only an excuse by the nurses because they resented being ordered by Tanu to watch me rather than do their jobs to other patients.
All these agencies were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.
I remember when I was during a history paper 40-years ago on the West Coast Indians what happened when a tribe member committed suicide. A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed. A life for a life. Maybe we should go back to those days.
I was not convicted of any criminal offence. In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work. So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me. All this is designed to have a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them. They will not apology or settle. They isolate, discredit and demoralize. It is a policy that all employees follow once a person is targetted.
When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke (Deputy police chief) he investigated, and he said that never happened. Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying. How could I prove it. Did it really matter because then they got WCB to agree so the employees are safe from me from what I do not know. I was a basket case. I was incapable of premeditating anything. And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do.
I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless. One doctor was threatened not to be a second opinion and they threatened that he would be denied hospital privileges. What did he ask? He said, BUT, WHAT DID SHE DO. And I was asked to take down my blog by him which I did for a period of time for his sake. I thought by doing so things would get better but they did not. I remember being told his livelihood and that of his family was at stake.
I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it. But the time it takes to write it, it calms me, and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid. I cry as I write, each word is a tear, each sentence become a cascade of tears. I slowly become exhausted, and then I can sleep.
This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.
28 October 2018 @ 4:00 am in the morning
When I read the above letter written by Catherine Romanko, the PGT, that was forwarded to me I could not believe it. The letter from the Public Guardian and Trustee said that I was not ill and they were calling for a summary court trial so that my action would be dismissed.
This with the full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. At eight years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect. My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidial.
And who are we talking about the Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this. How mean.
The 4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide. I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and they would not let me see him before he died. Besides I am old. I am at the end of my life. No lose to anyone. They banned me and Randy knowing he was dying suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying.He could not protect me as he could not talk or write. He was a vegetable with a mind. That was the cruelest thing any government body could do. But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy. The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA. They had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might be irrational but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward so I would have contact with others who were afraid of me. All these tribunals were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.
I remember when I was during a history paper on the West Coast Indians and what happened when a tribe member committed suicide. A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed. Maybe we should go back to those days.
I was not convicted of any criminal offence. In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work. So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me. It was a designed to be a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them.
When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke and he said that never happened. Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying/. How could I prove it. I was a basket case. And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do. I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless. One doctor I was told was threatened not to be a second opinion and they took away his hospital privileges. What did he ask? He said, BUT WHAT DID SHE DO.
I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it. But the time it takes to write it calms me and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid. I cry as I write, each word, each sentence, I then become exhausted, and then I can sleep.
This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.
This with the full knowledge that I was suffering from complex bereavement and persistent post traumatic disorder and severe depression. At eight years of being disrespected by VCHA what do they expect. My psychologist is of the expert opinion that I am actively suicidial.
And who are we talking about the Public Guardian and Trustee, Vancouver Coastal Health, and the College of Physician Surgeons. They are in charge of our public health and they are doing this. How mean.
The 4:00 am letter was enough of a trigger to force my suicide. I really do not have much to live for as my husband is dead and they would not let me see him before he died. Besides I am old. I am at the end of my life. No lose to anyone. They banned me and Randy knowing he was dying suffered terribly as my reports said while in hospital that when my name was mentioned he would start crying.He could not protect me as he could not talk or write. He was a vegetable with a mind. That was the cruelest thing any government body could do. But the PGT/VCH/CPSBC all have been given powers of government so that they can do what they want. Legislatively they do not have to have a reason. How was preventing me from being with Randy was in the best interest of Randy. The reality was that it was in the best interest of VCHA. They had him in a private room so I could visit him in the event I might be irrational but then on January 29 2014 after a meeting with the PGT and WCB it was decided to move him to an open ward so I would have contact with others who were afraid of me. All these tribunals were of the opinion when Randy was alive that I was a lune and now that I am a lune they have reversed their opinion.
I remember when I was during a history paper on the West Coast Indians and what happened when a tribe member committed suicide. A council would be called and the person who forced the suicide would be killed. Maybe we should go back to those days.
I was not convicted of any criminal offence. In fact the police would not get involved. I was told by a police officer that VPD were pissed off with doing VCHA's dirty work. So VCHA created a bizarre scenario to discredit me. It was a designed to be a "chill effect" so that no one else would complain against these tribunals least of all sue them.
When VCHA said that the police wanted me to be banned, I spoke to Warren Lemecke and he said that never happened. Either the police were lying or VCHA were lying/. How could I prove it. I was a basket case. And even if I was not a basket case, what could I do. I know there were a few good people out there that tried to help, but they were powerless. One doctor I was told was threatened not to be a second opinion and they took away his hospital privileges. What did he ask? He said, BUT WHAT DID SHE DO.
I do not even know why I write this blog as no one really reads it. But the time it takes to write it calms me and it keeps me from doing something totally stupid. I cry as I write, each word, each sentence, I then become exhausted, and then I can sleep.
This afternoon a retired psych nurse is coming to be with me, so I will be safe for today.
Saturday, September 22, 2018
22-09-2018 Carolanne Chamberlain
Below is part of an email from 2016.
Carolanne always wanted to see me. It was GPC/VCHA who made the decision otherwise.
On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 2:20 PM, Larry Shapiro Realties wrote:
I’ll take care of it.
When I brought the yellow flowers to Carolanne, I asked her if she would like to see you. Her response was enthusiastically
“yes”. Thought you would like to know.
Feel better soon Audrey,
Larry
Carolanne always wanted to see me. It was GPC/VCHA who made the decision otherwise.
On Sat, Mar 5, 2016 at 2:20 PM, Larry Shapiro Realties
I’ll take care of it.
When I brought the yellow flowers to Carolanne, I asked her if she would like to see you. Her response was enthusiastically
“yes”. Thought you would like to know.
Feel better soon Audrey,
Larry
Saturday, September 15, 2018
15-09-2018 Not doing very well
I thought by now I would be getting better but it seems an impossible ladder to climb. From being able to sleep too much to now not being able to sleep very little.
I can't seem to find anything that brings me pleasure -- a diversion from the eight years that I was bullied by VCHA. With all the proactive work VCHA is doing with mental health they neglect to look into their own organization and educate their own employees on how to interact with patients and their family and friends. Their policy is still if there is suspicion that a family member or patient might be critical of the VCHA that they have to be sanitized. In 2010 there was a web presence called Civil Rights Now by Paul Caine. It was highly critical of the health authorities and in those days the media would feature such talk and he has now been minimized to boring like all non-profit sites that get funding from VCHA. It was as if Paul was told to cool it. His website does not now contain any of the history of his time while in George Pearson Centre. It was a history so how can, I assume, VCHA destroy it. I wonder when he was being an advocate for the disabled he was confident and helpful now he doesn't even answer his phone. One thing that I cannot forget about his telling was a patient who needed help at George Pearson Centre and the residents in the ward were incessantly calling for assistance to help him and the requests were ignored and the patient died. History is history and it should not be deleted from the internet. I wonder if Paul knows about the constitutional challenge Roger Foley has started in Ontario. The issue includes directed funding that Paul wanted for patients in British Columbia. Foley has asked that Bill C-14 be declared unconstitutional as it does not give equal access to life. And there was Tina who sued VCHA and the Portland Society over the way she was treated and her vivid descriptive blog is gone. And also there was Ms. Tonner a health authority nurse-employee who complained about the death of her mother while in care and she threatened to deconstruct what happened. She got early retirement. For the greater good VCHA has decided to get rid of any negativity about VCHA so when abuses happen a loner is considered NOK and the loner is put on the flowchart of how VCHA treat dissenters. You are made to believe that there is something wrong with you. It is called gaslighting. And VCHA is very good at it.
As for me my suicide ideation of a few months ago it is still with me. It would be so easy. No more flashbacks, no more stress, no impossible deadlines, no more erratic behavior, like buying expensive clothes (clothes full price rather than on sale) that I will never wear. I attempted to buy a toaster oven and I took it back many times as I could not decide if I really wanted one. So I finally decided over a four month period on the most expensive toaster oven which I now rarely use. As an explantion, I live in a teardown and my stove oven hasn't been operational for a year. No owner is going to fix anything if his building is going to be demolished. And I won't complain as my rent is relatively cheap for Vancouver. Althoug the building was built in the 1950s it is structurally sound. It does not even have drywall, only plaster which does not mould and teak wood doors and teak wood windows frames and hardwood floors. It was originally used as an inlaw suite. Although the space is small I am happy here. It even has a small garden space which I am too depressed to look after. However, I did plant kale this spring and someone every so often drops by and tears off the new leaves, so now all I have is the stock with a few new small leaves sitting at the top. My place is close to the Canada Line so I have easy mobility. I know I should be proactive and move but I do not have the energy to think that far ahead. Once the permits are issued, I will have no choice. I dread the thought of my rent $tripling.
It is four in the morning and it is time to try to get some sleep.
My psychologist said it was good to keep a daily journal. I will try but sometimes it is very difficult as things are either so traumatic to repeat or so boring it is not worth the effort. I dislike reading my emails, listening to the news, answering the phone, or even going to the post office to pick up my mail. I cancelled my newspaper subscription and I do not have television. I have a sign on my door that says: go away, I am sleeping. I miss Randy and I regret not being able to fight for him harder. I would like to say that I tried my best, but I did not. The guilt will never go away. Yesterday a friend tried to move some of Randy's stuff in the storage area, stuff I hadn't seriously looked at for four years, and I went ballistic. I need his stuff near me and I want it in pristine condition. One of the things I want to do is eventually send to his father all of Randy's clothing that have a Steeler's logo on them. He has nine hats, sweat shirts, t-shirts and a Steeler's jacket. When I do that maybe I might then be in acceptance with his death but then maybe not. Everytime there was an occasion like a birthday I would go and buy Randy a $35.00 cap. He wore his caps even when he was sleeping. I managed to put one in his coffin before he was buried. I know his father would appreciate the hats as he has been a lifetime Steeler's fan, so is Randy's mother, but I just can't depart with them now. I just need to hold on to them. At one time I was wearing his bomber jacket most days but now as the weather is getting colder I can't find it. I sometimes think, if it wasn't for Carolanne, I would be well. I will be forever indebted to her as she told me in 2011 what Randy's rights were while being a patient at George Pearson Centre. She is the one that saved Randy's life.
I can't seem to find anything that brings me pleasure -- a diversion from the eight years that I was bullied by VCHA. With all the proactive work VCHA is doing with mental health they neglect to look into their own organization and educate their own employees on how to interact with patients and their family and friends. Their policy is still if there is suspicion that a family member or patient might be critical of the VCHA that they have to be sanitized. In 2010 there was a web presence called Civil Rights Now by Paul Caine. It was highly critical of the health authorities and in those days the media would feature such talk and he has now been minimized to boring like all non-profit sites that get funding from VCHA. It was as if Paul was told to cool it. His website does not now contain any of the history of his time while in George Pearson Centre. It was a history so how can, I assume, VCHA destroy it. I wonder when he was being an advocate for the disabled he was confident and helpful now he doesn't even answer his phone. One thing that I cannot forget about his telling was a patient who needed help at George Pearson Centre and the residents in the ward were incessantly calling for assistance to help him and the requests were ignored and the patient died. History is history and it should not be deleted from the internet. I wonder if Paul knows about the constitutional challenge Roger Foley has started in Ontario. The issue includes directed funding that Paul wanted for patients in British Columbia. Foley has asked that Bill C-14 be declared unconstitutional as it does not give equal access to life. And there was Tina who sued VCHA and the Portland Society over the way she was treated and her vivid descriptive blog is gone. And also there was Ms. Tonner a health authority nurse-employee who complained about the death of her mother while in care and she threatened to deconstruct what happened. She got early retirement. For the greater good VCHA has decided to get rid of any negativity about VCHA so when abuses happen a loner is considered NOK and the loner is put on the flowchart of how VCHA treat dissenters. You are made to believe that there is something wrong with you. It is called gaslighting. And VCHA is very good at it.
As for me my suicide ideation of a few months ago it is still with me. It would be so easy. No more flashbacks, no more stress, no impossible deadlines, no more erratic behavior, like buying expensive clothes (clothes full price rather than on sale) that I will never wear. I attempted to buy a toaster oven and I took it back many times as I could not decide if I really wanted one. So I finally decided over a four month period on the most expensive toaster oven which I now rarely use. As an explantion, I live in a teardown and my stove oven hasn't been operational for a year. No owner is going to fix anything if his building is going to be demolished. And I won't complain as my rent is relatively cheap for Vancouver. Althoug the building was built in the 1950s it is structurally sound. It does not even have drywall, only plaster which does not mould and teak wood doors and teak wood windows frames and hardwood floors. It was originally used as an inlaw suite. Although the space is small I am happy here. It even has a small garden space which I am too depressed to look after. However, I did plant kale this spring and someone every so often drops by and tears off the new leaves, so now all I have is the stock with a few new small leaves sitting at the top. My place is close to the Canada Line so I have easy mobility. I know I should be proactive and move but I do not have the energy to think that far ahead. Once the permits are issued, I will have no choice. I dread the thought of my rent $tripling.
It is four in the morning and it is time to try to get some sleep.
My psychologist said it was good to keep a daily journal. I will try but sometimes it is very difficult as things are either so traumatic to repeat or so boring it is not worth the effort. I dislike reading my emails, listening to the news, answering the phone, or even going to the post office to pick up my mail. I cancelled my newspaper subscription and I do not have television. I have a sign on my door that says: go away, I am sleeping. I miss Randy and I regret not being able to fight for him harder. I would like to say that I tried my best, but I did not. The guilt will never go away. Yesterday a friend tried to move some of Randy's stuff in the storage area, stuff I hadn't seriously looked at for four years, and I went ballistic. I need his stuff near me and I want it in pristine condition. One of the things I want to do is eventually send to his father all of Randy's clothing that have a Steeler's logo on them. He has nine hats, sweat shirts, t-shirts and a Steeler's jacket. When I do that maybe I might then be in acceptance with his death but then maybe not. Everytime there was an occasion like a birthday I would go and buy Randy a $35.00 cap. He wore his caps even when he was sleeping. I managed to put one in his coffin before he was buried. I know his father would appreciate the hats as he has been a lifetime Steeler's fan, so is Randy's mother, but I just can't depart with them now. I just need to hold on to them. At one time I was wearing his bomber jacket most days but now as the weather is getting colder I can't find it. I sometimes think, if it wasn't for Carolanne, I would be well. I will be forever indebted to her as she told me in 2011 what Randy's rights were while being a patient at George Pearson Centre. She is the one that saved Randy's life.
Friday, September 14, 2018
Euthanasia Prevention Coalition: Time to Terminate assisted suicide.
Euthanasia Prevention Coalition: Time to Terminate assisted suicide.: Alex Schdenberg Executive Director - Euthanasia Prevention Coalition: Steve Forbes Steve Forbes, wrote an excellent article for ending euthanasia.
Tuesday, September 11, 2018
30 September 2018 : Steve Forbes
Time To Terminate "Assisted Dying"
Steve Forbes Forbes Staff
Policy “With all thy getting, get understanding."
This story appears in the September 30, 2018 issue of Forbes.
IN 2002 Belgium legalized the murderously chilling act of euthanasia, whereby doctors and nurses kill patients with their supposed consent. Holland had formally done the same the year before. This practice, all too reminiscent of what Nazi Germany did before WWII to the mentally handicapped and to people with very serious disabilities, is justified these days not by Hitlerian theories of "purifying the race," of course, but as a "humane" way to deal with those who are suffering mortal illnesses and in extreme pain.
Many thousands of patients have been disposed of since Holland and Belgium enacted these morally repugnant laws. Belgium now allows euthanasia to be applied even to children, acknowledging recently that between Jan. 1, 2016, and Dec. 31, 2017, two children, ages 9 and 11, who were afflicted with a brain tumor and cystic fibrosis, respectively, and a 17-year-old, who had Duchenne muscular dystrophy, had been put to death. Apologists say these kids gave their consent, as did their parents. Good God! Are we to believe that youngsters should be making such decisions?
Holland has been hit with scandals in which patients were administered lethal injections without their consent, in order to free up "needed" hospital beds. After all, the reasoning went, these people were going to die soon, anyway. In Belgium, according to a news report, a member of the Federal Commission for Euthanasia Control & Evaluation resigned last year "in protest at the unchecked killings of dementia patients."
What's happening here is an ugly, slippery slope. Instead of working to alleviate the tribulations of the afflicted and innovating ever better ways to do this, we simply "put them out of their misery," the way we do with household pets.
It's not only in Belgium and the Netherlands that we're seeing this awful phenomenon. A chronically ill man in Canada is suing the government because medical personnel allegedly and illegally tried to coerce him into going the assisted-suicide route to save money. "Why force me to end my life?" the plaintiff asked.
It's one thing for people to declare in writing when they are in good health and of sound mind that no "heroic" measures are to be taken, that medical staff should "let nature take its course." But it's quite another for medical personnel to actually kill patients, as is happening in Belgium, Holland and elsewhere.
Research shows that many euthanasia and assisted-suicide victims are suffering from depression. They should be treated, not abandoned. As for physical suffering, it's hardly beyond the capabilities of modern medicine to effectively manage pain with older, well-established medications, as well as newer, better drugs.
It's true that in the U.S. we have a serious opioid crisis. Nonetheless, the response shouldn't be a diminution in pain management but, alternatively, a focus on reducing and eventually eliminating the abuses
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The temptation to use euthanasia as a solution will only increase as populations age and as cash-strapped governments and insurers scramble to find ways to reduce growing healthcare costs. It should be axiomatic that life is sacrosanct, whether or not you are religious
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In recent times we have seen enormous medical advances that not only prolong life but also improve the quality of life as we age. The answer to the rising costs of healthcare is the creation of genuine free markets, which always turn scarcity into abundance. There is precious little in the way of free markets in healthcare. Third parties, primarily governments and insurers--not the patients--still dominate. This is beginning to change in the U.S. Rapidly effecting this transformation should be our urgent goal, not surrendering to rationing or descending into the pit of euthanasia and "assisted dying."
Morally and pragmatically, such practices have no place in a truly civilized and humane society.
Steve Forbes is Chairman and Editor-in-Chief of Forbes Media. Steve’s new book: Reviving America: How Repealing Obamacare, Replacing the Tax Code and Reforming The Fed will Restore Hope and Prosperity co-authored by Elizabeth Ames (McGraw-Hill Professional) came out in De...
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